In another life, I would be your girl
We'd keep all our promises
Be us against the world

In another life, I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away.

Who would have thought a Katy Perry song would make me cry. But it does....every damn time. So maybe if I write this down, it will stop. I'll stop crying.

It's been almost 5 months without him. And yes, I'm the one that ended it. I had to. He was...

Sometimes to make sense of the present, one has to revisit the past. And right now I need to visit the past - look at a time when violence and love were entangled in my mind.

The deepest most intense love of my life happened years ago and I wish I could describe as being the best time of my life. It wasn’t.

It was:
Raw
Sensual
Chemical
Intense
Dark
Destructive
Violent

The relationship lasted for a year and took me...

There is only one man for me. Everything about him arouses me, challenges me and makes me a better woman.

I keep waiting for the sexual tension to ease, for boredom to set in, but it doesn’t. The longer we are together and the more we learn about each other’s bodies, the more intense our sex becomes. He knows all my buttons - he knows how to whisper the right words to me and he knows the effect he has on me. He delights in his power over me and his ability to arouse me anytime, anywhere....

I am a good cook. I’m not sure you would know this, considering we spend more time playing naked then actually eating anything I cook. Burned meals, mushy pasta and dried out chicken are the price I pay for moving in with a man who would rather fuck than eat a well-cooked meal.

This morning though, I am determined to feed you. I get up early and slip out from under your arm. Oh god, I hate leaving you in bed. I feel so cold without you, especially first thing in the morning. All night,...

I keep revisiting the past, and I know I have to move on. Perhaps what I need is a sexual palate cleanser - a new man, a new cock. Some new sexual experiences to replace the ones left behind.

As I never meet any new people, I am using a "dating" site from which to select a new friend with benefits/fuck buddy.

So bear with me as I drift away from my fantasy blog to detail the search.....

Let's look at the candidates so far:

1. The...