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that's something. i am depressed as hell and god i miss fucking him but i don't think it will ever happen again.
he hummed too, it has been so long since he last went down on me. i can't remember. but he was the best, only one other person i have been with did the humming and he kept switching his tune. which was kind of annoying.
anyway. woe is me.

i have to do all this work, which of course i have been putting off as long as possible. i have to clean up my place as i have a shoot early tomorrow morning. i have to get at least a couple hrs of sleep in somehow, not sure how. fuck.... i hate my place, it's yuck. i gave up on it a long time ago. i can still stuff shit in the closet and make it look semi decent. but then i can't find anything. and the dishes, oh god, should i just throw them all away and get paper ones?
and at...

ok so, let's see where do i start. i guess the main reason i'm on here is that i am a girth queen and the guy i really love having sex with doesn't want to do it with me anymore. he says he's not opposed to the idea but the way i act scares him. he has like the perfect cock for me. and he is better than anyone else i've ever had at going down. he is attractive to me, the bad boy type or whatever. and he is one of the very few people that hang out with me. so ok, here's the other part. ...