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It's odd when people like the front that you project more than the real you. I'd send people meaningful messages here, genuinely interact with them, open my heart out, and get barely any reply. Meanwhile I just have to upload a picture on grindr, showing my face and body, and I'd get taps and...

for the first time in a while, I am at peace. The fog of loneliness is momentarily gone. The colors are back, and I am myself again. Not needing anyone and just indulgence, focusing on experiences and creation. what a time. I wish it can be like this always. :emoji_upside_down:

9:56 AM March 28, 2023 I remember coming back home after being stranded in China for half a year because of covid and thinking how lucky I was to be back where my options are infinitely better than what I had as a foreigner in a country whose language I can't speak. I always try to remember...

10:54 PM March 27, 2023 I miss you. But I don't know whether or not to message you yet. You seem to like it when I'm ignoring you, as all men love the chase. All I want to is be sweet with you, but neediness is unattractive. So I'm going to let you loose in order to keep you, even when I'm...

When I make eye contact with myself in the mirror, a small part of me couldn't believe that it's me who's staring back. I look good. If I were to pass myself on the street, I'd totally check myself out. I'm totally my type. Boyishly handsome. Cocky. Ah, I wish I can talk about this more with...

Deep breath. Exhale. Ok. Here we go. I don’t know where to begin. Recently I became aware of a scene from a show called “Sex/Life”. The scene involves a character getting access to a gym shower in order to see the dick of his wife’s old boyfriend. He has been becoming insecure and wants to know...