1st post, hope you can bear with me, as this seems a good forum to ask this, given the number of sexually "well-travelled" people here. My wife seems happy with me, though I know I am too small for her (6.5" x 4.5") as she is tall, and has had our son. I dunno, perhaps it is "penis anxiety" or neuroses, but it's getting to the point of obsessing my every waking thought just how inadequate I must be since I am unable to REALLY fcuk her deeply, completely & totally, the way a man with a large penis could. I feel like I'm not even a real human, let alone a real man. Anyway, I bought a sextoy (bigger than me, of course) to incorporate into our lovelife for her pleasure. She was very shy at first, and said no, but once she tried it, she took quite a liking to it. Which validated my suspicions about her needs. I suggested that perhaps I'd even consider hiring a male escort with a huge one to "bang her brains out". She laughed nervously, and said she wouldn't want it, but I know that laugh, and it meant she liked the idea, and only said she'd reject it to spare my feelings. :frown1: But anyway, if I do this thing for her, will she be ruined for me forever afterward? As in, if she were to have sex with a man with a huge penis, would she be unable to ever enjoy sex with me again? It's self-destructive of me, and would probably destroy me to see her having deep, profound ecstasy inflicted on her in a way I can never do for her (as I am a male afterall, and it would probably fatally compromise my male self-esteem) but I feel like I'm denying her self-fulfilment and our marriage is a only as real as I can keep her sexually naive, and her needs suppressed, ie, not real at all. Perhaps my perceptions of what other men are packing are distorted by porn, and anecdote and hearsay, but it seems like men with huge, thick cocks are everywhere, even though statistics suggests they are quite uncommon or rare. Unless it's because men with large cocks are far more sexually active than small/average men, so the female perception of average is skewed to large as a result.