Hi guys (and gals). I've been in a contemplative mood today and less recently. I'm not really that into the course I've chosen, have missed quite a few IMPORTANT lessons/classes/seminars. Due to drunkeness, laziness, and sometimes some anxiety. I'd much more like to do an English related course, specifically creative writing or English language at least. For some reason I'm into poetry now, but I could write stories, which I used to do exclusively, effectively, and enjoyably. I'll look into that and see if I can transfer next year. It's just I wouldn't like to fail this first year or have it all be worth nothing since its cost a lot just to move here, get into uni etc. I was thinking of sending off to some writing competitions too, I have one poem 'Phoenix Rising' that everyone I've showed it too seems to like. Do you [Naughy] think I should send that off? Anyway, I'm dreading going to a class tomorrow, where I've missed two lessons and at least two important pieces of work (that were basic things, like doing a CV and some Excel stuff) that contribute 50% of my final grade. Then on Tuesday I go back to two classes where I've missed 4 of them in a row, and one I haven't even had one lesson of yet (Japanese). That's quite nerve-wracking but I'll do it. I'm just not happy with the way things have gone, and how much I've missed already. I spose it's salvagable, and if I were doing English, a course I enjoy things would be better also. My girlfriend is very inexperienced, and takes things real slow, is shy etc and quite like me (INFJ), eg I asked her tonight 'what are you doin' when she was touchin me or something and she'd say 'I don't know' in a very doubting tone. I've been thinking maybe I should just leave her, break up and find a more willing, or expressive and less scared or nervous girl? Although I do really like her...Just wondering what y'all think, comments or advice or something. Thanks.