12 April 2020

I've been inspired by the guy at The Temple of Eros to re-think my attitudes. I've been jacking off every couple of days. The tensions build up. I fight them, but in the end give in because I need to clear my head and get back to work. I find some porn image to help me and that's it. I've constantly been fighting the tensions and losing.

It's no great way of living. Is that all my sexuality is - an unwanted and unbeatable foe? Surely better to embrace it?

'Love your body', says the guy. I resist caressing myself. It's sees weird. But why? 'Celebrate your beauty. we are all beautiful' - yet I want to look like my latest porn star/muscle god crush. I don't like or want my own body. I need to learn to love my body and enjoy it.

And when I work out, I'm doing battle with my body - making it do stuff when it wants to chill out on the sofa with coffee and a croissant. But I need to make my work out sensuous. I need to feel and enjoy the working of my muscles. How did my current muscle god crush manage to jack off on camera so beautifully? Because he loves his body - with good reason!

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Imagine during a different meditation exercise, and realize the ejaculation as an expression of your personal self love. Note the ejaculation comes from your meditation choice. Understand? Realize it is not necessary to understand. Did you accomplish a goal? Did you enjoy the ejaculation or the journey? Becoming lost can be successful accomplishment joining the rest of us in our insanity:triumph:.
 

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