A Come to Jesus Meeting

I think I need to have a come to Jesus meeting, with God. :yup: I've held up my end of the deal often going above and beyond what was necessary. Not just to be a good daughter, but a good person, and hopefully a good Christian. I know I'm an excellent worker, yet he struck me with one serious illness after another until I had to stop working. I don't want to be disabled; I damn sure don't want a handout. But if God isn't going to allow me to collect SSD, then he needs to step up to the plate and find me a decent job.

There has obviously been a mistake, God seems to think I am to be a modern day Job. Lest you think I exaggerate, in the last 3 years I have been stricken/blessed with: vulvar cancer, Meniere's disease, uterine fibroids the size of North Dakota, diverticulosis, psoriasis - not on my elbows like most people, but on my scalp, ears, and nose. FYI - When you get psoriasis on your scalp, it takes out your hair. You could say I'm irked, but that really doesn't do my current emotional state justice. Speaking of my emotional state, I seem to be fighting a never ending uphill battle against major depressive disorder and generalized anxiety disorder.

Did I mention that dad's Parkinson's has kicked into overdrive, seemingly overnight. Mom's doctor says she is in the early stages of dementia. Which means that I am now a caregiver to my adult parents. It SUCKS for all of us in different ways, at different times. For me it's like living with 80 year old toddlers. Willfull, spoiled, adult size toddlers. :irked:

Occassionally I am optimistic and worry that I will get some great job in Atlanta and have to hire people to chauffer and care for my parents. However, with the economy in the crapper, and double digit unemployment rates, not just in my county but in the entire state of Georgia, it seems I am putting the cart before the horse. :mad:

This is not how my life was supposed to be. I was supposed to be married with a few kids, a dog, and a house in the burbs by now.

Comments

PA,

No one puts an order in to be handmaid. However sometimes this is what we are tasked with in life. In fact if you ask many of the folks here on the board at some point in their lives they either have or are going through it as well. I know neither do anything for their health and stress levels.
I know this sounds easy for me to say but try not to think about what you think you should have and deal with what you do have. I long ago learned that it would be a down hill experience to compare myself with my age mates in terms of having the house husband and 2.5 kids. This was not how it worked out. I too understand the stress and frustration you feel being an elder caretaker. I have been doing it since my 20's and my hat is off to you. perhaps we should start a caretaker's group here on the board. I think it could at least be a place to blow off steam with people who have been there and understand what you are going through. I am sending you a big hug through the computer. Your parents are very blessed to have a loving daughter like you to take care of them. Try to take each day at a time. I think it may help you lessen the freak out tendency.
 
Psoriasis SUCKS!

I had it on my scalp when I first developed it. Thankfully, by the grace of God, after much treatment with Diprosalic, my scalp is in stable remission. I am extremely grateful of this as I have little hair and often wet shave my head.

I still have spots of it in my ears and in the other usual places. Calcipotriol (Daivonex) has change my life and given me much confidence in living with Psoriasi. It's well worth a look, you never know, could work for you to.

Other than, I'm so sorry to hear things are rough, hang in there...
 
What a lot of superstitious rubbish! There is no god. There never was a virgin birth. If there ever was a man called Jesus he was just an ordinary man. There is no after life - so wake up and enjoy life now. Don't be feeble minded like George Bush and Tony Blair!
 
Ok i dont know how to help you with everything else, but i can give you some advice about your psoriasis:

1) make a hot cup of green tea (the kind you get in packet and heat yourself not bottled)
2) let it cool for 20 mins or until it is cool enough
3) pour on your scalp, massage it in, let it stay for 30 min to an hour
4) rinse

I tried this recently have having YEARS of HORRIBLE dandruff (or psoriasis?) and it has been WIPED out ever since! The chemical treatments used to treat these conditions have horrible side effects. if people were only aware of God-given natural cures like this. Anyway, I cant make any promises to you, but it certainly cured what I had...
 
PA,

How do you have a come to Jesus meeting with Jesus...If you believe in the Trinity then you just proposed it. LOL!
 
naughty;bt17217 said:
PA, How do you have a come to Jesus meeting with Jesus...If you believe in the Trinity then you just proposed it. LOL!

I said, I think I need to have "a come to Jesus meeting," with God, not Jesus. I was taught that the Trinity is the Father (God), Son (Jesus) and Holy Ghost or Holy Spirit.

In addition to these, the King James Version has, as [3], "For there are three that bear record in heaven, the Father, the Word, and the Holy Ghost: and these three are one."

For example:
Luke 1:35: "The angel answered and said to her, 'The Holy Spirit will come upon you, and the power of the Most High will overshadow you; and for that reason the holy Child shall be called the Son of God.'"

2 Cor. 13:14: "The grace of the Lord Jesus Christ and the love of God and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit be with all of you."
 
njqt466;bt17219 said:
I said, I think I need to have "a come to Jesus meeting," with God, not Jesus. I was taught that the Trinity is the Father (God), Son (Jesus) and Holy Ghost or Holy Spirit.

In addition to these, the King James Version has, as [3], "For there are three that bear record in heaven, the Father, the Word, and the Holy Ghost: and these three are one."

For example:
Luke 1:35: "The angel answered and said to her, 'The Holy Spirit will come upon you, and the power of the Most High will overshadow you; and for that reason the holy Child shall be called the Son of God.'"

2 Cor. 13:14: "The grace of the Lord Jesus Christ and the love of God and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit be with all of you."

PA ,

I got it! I know this, a joke, a joke....
 
With each passing day I am reminded that my parents are aging and will not live forever. :frown1: I know I will miss them as much as the air I breathe, when their time comes.

I know I bitch, about them but I am living rent free with my folks. :redface: They pay for my BC/BS PPO all my meds, food, clothes etc. With so many people going bankrupt, losing their jobs, and losing homes to foreclosure; I know I am in a lot better shape than many people in the USA and I am VERY grateful for that. :cool:
 
I think that dealing with the fact that your parents aren't going to live forever on top of caring for them is just wearing you down. If everyone's life were as they wanted them to be then the world would probably be more chaotic than it already is.

My parents are a couple of decades under yours and don't have the same health issues, but I have braced myself for their last day. I can handle it. I'm going to miss my parents too. I think they're irreplaceable even getting on my nerves they way they do.

I've done a couple of things in life but I have yet to lose a parent. When their last day comes, I plan to have cried all of my tears already and said my silent goodbyes. I don't think there's anything that I can say, P, that would console you and not have you feeling so tired & drained. I usually have words for any given situation but with this I am voiceless.

Give me a hug, girl.
 
8060;bt17569 said:
I think that dealing with the fact that your parents aren't going to live forever on top of caring for them is just wearing you down. If everyone's life were as they wanted them to be then the world would probably be more chaotic than it already is.
8060;bt17569 said:
My parents are a couple of decades under yours and don't have the same health issues, but I have braced myself for their last day. I can handle it. I'm going to miss my parents too. I think they're irreplaceable even getting on my nerves they way they do.

I've done a couple of things in life but I have yet to lose a parent. When their last day comes, I plan to have cried all of my tears already and said my silent goodbyes. I don't think there's anything that I can say, P, that would console you and not have you feeling so tired & drained. I usually have words for any given situation but with this I am voiceless.

Give me a hug, girl.
I will always take a hug from a hot, buff dude. :wink: I don't expect anyone to fix them, I just need to vent sometimes.
 

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