Adrift

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Adrift. Weak. Terrified.

That’s how I feel lately. Five days ago a major traumatic event triggered buried trauma I buried 25+ years ago. There was no way in that moment to avoid the reality of being pulled back to old terror.

I am shaken. Terror is a feeling foreign to me as a man, but I was reminded of that feeling again. I pride myself on the ability to withstand, survive and excel in the aftermath. That has proven to be not only elusive, but damn near a fairy tale at this point. I find myself randomly in tears without knowing why. Or thinking through pains 10, 20+ years old.

Pain. Fear. Anxiety. And Anger there to protect me from the other three. Momentarily this my mind’s minefield. Maybe a professional can help me navigate the field without tripping over every secret wire along the way.

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Definitely give it a try. The first few visits may be unpleasant, but they will hopefully give you a jumpstart on healing. It’s helpful to get a professional of any kind’s professional knowledge on a subject you find yourself stuck on.
 
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There is light at the end of the tunnel. I know it’s hard to believe that now and probably will be for a few sessions in, but trust that it’s there. You got this, okay?
 
I can attest that therapy is the hardest but most helpful thing you can do for yourself. It'll hurt, but it'll help. There will be moments of anger, terror and pain, but there is someone there that is trained to help you navigate those moments in a safe and healthy way.

I'm sorry life seems to be truly kicking your ass lately. I assure you, there are people who love you, who care and who want you healthy and happy. Try to remember that through the chaos.

I'm sending you all the love and good vibes I can muster. You've got this, hun. ♥️
 
professional help is an incredible tool to have in your arsenal ! it can take some time but when you find the right therapist or psychiatrist they are amazing. just keep at it!
It takes courage to recognize you need help.
 
Friend, I hope you are finding what you need to deal with the awful stuff from your history.

It's a terrible thing when something you cannot control prevents you from optimizing your life in the present and future. You are an intelligent and strong man. I believe you will find a way to get there.

Your friends here may seem be on the crazy / perv side of humanity, but most of us are actually reasonable and compassionate individuals.

Anytime you find the need to talk with any of us, we will be there for you. Just ask!

Kind regards,
Indy
 

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