So that there's no confusion. I'm a boy/male/gentleman/man/lad/fellow/XY Chromosome bearing human being.
Throughout my life I've gotten comments, whether observatory or derogatory, about my "soft" features.
I've even been confused for a female before. Told by one individual that they could only ever think of me as a female.
Told my another that I look like a male version of Alicia Keys.
Okay.
Now I'm in college. Off on my own. Been so for a while now. Nothing new. Now I'm experiencing a different side of what it means to look like me.
People see my features and assume I'm homosexual. Well......that part isn't new. That started in 4th Grade.
Even in Primary School, kids, specifically other boys, would ridicule me for my naturally curly eye lashes. They'd say I went home to curl them like a girl and what have you.
I've gotten comments about my lips. About how pink they look. How red they look. How much they resemble a certain part of the female anatomy.
I've been told I have girl hands. (Really? That's a new one)
So now I'm getting hit on by boys........young men.........old men.......homeless men............
Anonymously and in person.
I've been accosted twice on the streets of my college campus by these older guys. Demanding I give them my number with their Cell Phone extended. Hovering around me as I pack up my vehicle to leave. Asking me about where I live. Complimenting about my eyes. Telling me I look like a super model. Asking if I'm coming back. Attempting to hop into my car to use a cigarette lighter that's not even there. Begging me to come back as I'm leaving. Still there when I get back. Leaning inside passenger side window of my car as I try to pull off.
Asking me if I'm "interesting in being with a nigg@."
Even though I'm of legal age, I get that I look much younger and so I don't think it'd be a long shot in calling these GROWN MEN pedophiles.
I'm getting facebooked anonymously now by people from my college. They obviously know me. I have no idea who they are. They ask me questions.......compliment me........make statements........
Of course I ignore. I don't want to be rude.......I don't want to give the wrong idea either........
I'm naive so my initial response to such compliments is to say, "thank you", and be done with it. It occurred to me that giving the circumstances, that might not be the best thing. So yeah......I ignore.......as a result......periodically throughout the years here, I get a check up from the select few individuals who are open about their status, don't care if I know, and continue to message me (in addition to the countless numbers who do so anonymously).
Is ignoring them still leading them on? I don't know..........
It's all rather interesting.......I don't lose sleep over any of this. I'm just trying to imagine how it's going to be once I'm officially out on my own in the real world. College is just a miniscule bubble society that's a lesser iteration of what is to come.
Hope I'm ready.
Throughout my life I've gotten comments, whether observatory or derogatory, about my "soft" features.
I've even been confused for a female before. Told by one individual that they could only ever think of me as a female.
Told my another that I look like a male version of Alicia Keys.
Okay.
Now I'm in college. Off on my own. Been so for a while now. Nothing new. Now I'm experiencing a different side of what it means to look like me.
People see my features and assume I'm homosexual. Well......that part isn't new. That started in 4th Grade.
Even in Primary School, kids, specifically other boys, would ridicule me for my naturally curly eye lashes. They'd say I went home to curl them like a girl and what have you.
I've gotten comments about my lips. About how pink they look. How red they look. How much they resemble a certain part of the female anatomy.
I've been told I have girl hands. (Really? That's a new one)
So now I'm getting hit on by boys........young men.........old men.......homeless men............
Anonymously and in person.
I've been accosted twice on the streets of my college campus by these older guys. Demanding I give them my number with their Cell Phone extended. Hovering around me as I pack up my vehicle to leave. Asking me about where I live. Complimenting about my eyes. Telling me I look like a super model. Asking if I'm coming back. Attempting to hop into my car to use a cigarette lighter that's not even there. Begging me to come back as I'm leaving. Still there when I get back. Leaning inside passenger side window of my car as I try to pull off.
Asking me if I'm "interesting in being with a nigg@."
Even though I'm of legal age, I get that I look much younger and so I don't think it'd be a long shot in calling these GROWN MEN pedophiles.
I'm getting facebooked anonymously now by people from my college. They obviously know me. I have no idea who they are. They ask me questions.......compliment me........make statements........
Of course I ignore. I don't want to be rude.......I don't want to give the wrong idea either........
I'm naive so my initial response to such compliments is to say, "thank you", and be done with it. It occurred to me that giving the circumstances, that might not be the best thing. So yeah......I ignore.......as a result......periodically throughout the years here, I get a check up from the select few individuals who are open about their status, don't care if I know, and continue to message me (in addition to the countless numbers who do so anonymously).
Is ignoring them still leading them on? I don't know..........
It's all rather interesting.......I don't lose sleep over any of this. I'm just trying to imagine how it's going to be once I'm officially out on my own in the real world. College is just a miniscule bubble society that's a lesser iteration of what is to come.
Hope I'm ready.