Attraction is a funny thing to me. There appears to be no rhyme or reason to the guys I find attractive. In my later years, I seem to find a larger variety of guys attractive. I never considered bears attractive until somewhat recently. Does our selection process mature with us or am I just getting desperate to find a guy to be with that I can be happy with?
I remember the days when I lived in the NOVA area. The types of guys I was interested in and the ones I wouldn't have anything to do with. I was after the pretty boys. The "joe average" guy couldn't get anywhere with me. I had a fair amount of success with the hot boys, but I didn't end up with any of them as bfs. How many great guys did I ignore because they didn't have six pack abs or a nice paying job? I dread to imagine.
As I mentioned, I don't know if my attractions have matured as I have or I'm just desperate to find a guy. I'm going to be 38 in 25 days and I worry about finding someone who will like me. All I can remember is how I acted when a guy that was older than me approached me. That's part of the reason I'm with a guy that's older now. Just to show that I'm not an ageist. Not the best of reasons. I don't think there is any reason I have for this relationship that is a good one.
I have my issues and I fear noone will want to love me, so I jump at the first chance for love I get. AND, to date, I've paid for it each time.
I remember the days when I lived in the NOVA area. The types of guys I was interested in and the ones I wouldn't have anything to do with. I was after the pretty boys. The "joe average" guy couldn't get anywhere with me. I had a fair amount of success with the hot boys, but I didn't end up with any of them as bfs. How many great guys did I ignore because they didn't have six pack abs or a nice paying job? I dread to imagine.
As I mentioned, I don't know if my attractions have matured as I have or I'm just desperate to find a guy. I'm going to be 38 in 25 days and I worry about finding someone who will like me. All I can remember is how I acted when a guy that was older than me approached me. That's part of the reason I'm with a guy that's older now. Just to show that I'm not an ageist. Not the best of reasons. I don't think there is any reason I have for this relationship that is a good one.
I have my issues and I fear noone will want to love me, so I jump at the first chance for love I get. AND, to date, I've paid for it each time.
