Well, I was able to get fully erect today while I was watching porn. Since I'm sure the bf is doing his thing, I figured I'd do mine. Good deal.
And, what's the deal with relationships anyway? Why do they exist? I've been awful in picking guys to date....or maybe I'm awful....regardless I don't know what the big "payoff" is in having a relationship. Maybe I just don't know because I've not had a good relationship in the 18 years I've been out.
I have bad relationships because I fear noone will want me for whatever reason. I jump into the first relationship that comes my way. I know that's not the right thing to do and I pay for it everytime I do it. My current relationship is lame. Or maybe I'm the one that's lame. Maybe I should be out there finding someone to fool around with behind my bfs back like he does to me. Only difference, I caught him. Well, not really caught, but I found emails that indicate he's been fooling around and was trying to do so again.
Maybe I need more therapy. Maybe I'm still not ready for a relationship. I like to think I'm a decent guy. I do what I can to be a good bf, but in the last 3 relationships, that just didn't seem to be enough.
Why don't relationships come with a manual?
And, what's the deal with relationships anyway? Why do they exist? I've been awful in picking guys to date....or maybe I'm awful....regardless I don't know what the big "payoff" is in having a relationship. Maybe I just don't know because I've not had a good relationship in the 18 years I've been out.
I have bad relationships because I fear noone will want me for whatever reason. I jump into the first relationship that comes my way. I know that's not the right thing to do and I pay for it everytime I do it. My current relationship is lame. Or maybe I'm the one that's lame. Maybe I should be out there finding someone to fool around with behind my bfs back like he does to me. Only difference, I caught him. Well, not really caught, but I found emails that indicate he's been fooling around and was trying to do so again.
Maybe I need more therapy. Maybe I'm still not ready for a relationship. I like to think I'm a decent guy. I do what I can to be a good bf, but in the last 3 relationships, that just didn't seem to be enough.
Why don't relationships come with a manual?