So, I had a few really great questions, and I think i will start off answering those.
1. At what age did I feel like I had the body size I wanted?
~I guess that would have to be jeez, around 6th grade? I think my bra size then was around a B cup. But I wouldn't go that low now.
2. If you lose weight, won't you lose weight in your boobs too?
~Yes I would, but what I was referring to was the fact that I might not look proportionate if I lost less in my boobs than everything else. At least now I'm big everywhere lol
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3. Are you insecure about the way you look?
~ I'm going to say yes, but it's not all the time. Certain situations and people make me feel more uncomfortable.
So there, thanks again for the great response! Now back to continuing my story
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I'd like to think that people have never really said anything about my boobs behind my back, but I know that's not the case. I was kind of the freak show until about 10th grade, even if no one said anything to my face. I first time I would say I really thought about being bigger than everyone else was when I just finished 6th grade. Which coincidently was the last time I would wear a bathing suit. I was swimming with some friends and they had two docks on each side of the mini lake. I was wearing a swimsuit with a tee-shirt over it. Well, these two guys, maybe a couple years older, kept following me around between the two docks and swimming back and forth to catch me. I didn't understand so I kept swimming back and forth to avoid them. Well, I got tired and stopped to let them catch up to me. When we were at the same dock, one of the boys say; "hey. You looked better far away." I was completely shocked. Why would they say such a mean thing? I think they saw my figure from far away, which would of been just boobs and legs lol. I also think they thought I was older. It still sticks in my mind b/c that's how I have always thought of what people think of me. Oh, she's nice from afar, body wise, but get up close and its not so good. I hate those boys for making me feel that way lol.
And even in high school, it didn't completely stop. Of course I wasn't as big as others now that every other girl was catching up, but I was still bigger than anyone I knew. I think 4 of my friends would just say randomly, "Emily, wow your boobs are huge." Which isn't a big deal until you think that that's always on my mind to begin with. It was horrible being around guys in school, I felt they were always staring. And again, buying clothes was horrible too. I haven't been able to buy clothes that are age appropiate in a long while. They just don't make them in my size. Instead of dressing like a 20 something yr. old, I'm buying just whatever can fit around my boobs. And then, the bottom of the shirt just hangs down, so it looks a little like a huge bag was just put on. Grrrr I hate it lol. And of course, the clothes that would fit me are waaay to expensive. Anyways, I'm starting to ramble.
I think I'm going to stop there, and next time I'll talk about the aches and pains physically that come along with huge breasts more. Thanks for reading, and keep searching for the stars. :biggrin1: I know I always am :redface:
1. At what age did I feel like I had the body size I wanted?
~I guess that would have to be jeez, around 6th grade? I think my bra size then was around a B cup. But I wouldn't go that low now.
2. If you lose weight, won't you lose weight in your boobs too?
~Yes I would, but what I was referring to was the fact that I might not look proportionate if I lost less in my boobs than everything else. At least now I'm big everywhere lol
3. Are you insecure about the way you look?
~ I'm going to say yes, but it's not all the time. Certain situations and people make me feel more uncomfortable.
So there, thanks again for the great response! Now back to continuing my story
I'd like to think that people have never really said anything about my boobs behind my back, but I know that's not the case. I was kind of the freak show until about 10th grade, even if no one said anything to my face. I first time I would say I really thought about being bigger than everyone else was when I just finished 6th grade. Which coincidently was the last time I would wear a bathing suit. I was swimming with some friends and they had two docks on each side of the mini lake. I was wearing a swimsuit with a tee-shirt over it. Well, these two guys, maybe a couple years older, kept following me around between the two docks and swimming back and forth to catch me. I didn't understand so I kept swimming back and forth to avoid them. Well, I got tired and stopped to let them catch up to me. When we were at the same dock, one of the boys say; "hey. You looked better far away." I was completely shocked. Why would they say such a mean thing? I think they saw my figure from far away, which would of been just boobs and legs lol. I also think they thought I was older. It still sticks in my mind b/c that's how I have always thought of what people think of me. Oh, she's nice from afar, body wise, but get up close and its not so good. I hate those boys for making me feel that way lol.
And even in high school, it didn't completely stop. Of course I wasn't as big as others now that every other girl was catching up, but I was still bigger than anyone I knew. I think 4 of my friends would just say randomly, "Emily, wow your boobs are huge." Which isn't a big deal until you think that that's always on my mind to begin with. It was horrible being around guys in school, I felt they were always staring. And again, buying clothes was horrible too. I haven't been able to buy clothes that are age appropiate in a long while. They just don't make them in my size. Instead of dressing like a 20 something yr. old, I'm buying just whatever can fit around my boobs. And then, the bottom of the shirt just hangs down, so it looks a little like a huge bag was just put on. Grrrr I hate it lol. And of course, the clothes that would fit me are waaay to expensive. Anyways, I'm starting to ramble.
I think I'm going to stop there, and next time I'll talk about the aches and pains physically that come along with huge breasts more. Thanks for reading, and keep searching for the stars. :biggrin1: I know I always am :redface: