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Goodbye 2011, you've been ... different to say the least.
Here's hoping everyone has had a pleasant Saturnalia and that your NYE was spectucular.
I spent my NYE with some much-missed friends from University. We hired a rural house and spent the last few days catching up on things, eating...
I feel like destroying something beautiful ...
I feel like destroying myself ...
I feel like there is no way out no matter how hard I try or how far I climb.
I'm not happy.
I am ... angry and vengeful and ...
I am desolate and empty.
I am without hope ...
I need a way out.
A lot of stuff has gone down in the past 3 months but I still bad for not blogging at least something so here's a brief review of May through July -
- dumped by woman (call her C) I previously posted about via text and subsequently deleted from her Facebook
- had a disciplinary hearing at work...
So I've been seen this girl for the last 3 or 4 weeks and things were going well, or so I thought. We've enjoyed a few nice dates, shared a few nights together, the sex was really good (even if I didn't cum) and generallly I thought that we really enjoyed each others' company.
However, over...
Well, I've neglected my blog recently but I have been very busy so you'll have to let me off.
My new job is actually going quite well even after a few teething problems and me almost getting myself fired. I'm really enjoying it, there's a great team of people down there and I really feel like...
So we're into 2011 (btw Happy New Year everyone!) and after some thinking, I've decided it's going to be a good year.
Having been to my new place of work, I'm actually really excited about starting there. My new manager seems really nice, we seem to be on the same page about things and it...
So, here goes another Christmas period. Not really sure what to think about it, been a fairly average Christmas this year. Not really done anything special, but it was nice to spend some time with my Mom and I got to see my cousin yesterday for the first time in a few years.
The whole idea of...
Right, time for another whinge ...
Assessment day and interview done and I've heard the results. Demotion is what's happening but they "see me as a manager of the future" and "this is a chance to shine" ... what a load of shit when they give my job to someone who cannot read or write properly...
So I got my dates through for my assessment day and my re-interviews for my own job and ... I'm shitting myself about it. I've already had a bollocking from my Regional Manager over a misunderstanding and then everytime she comes into the centre, it's me on duty and the place is "not to...
What did I say last night? "We'll have to see what happens" ... was that it? Well something did happen.
I had a few beers and then this girl text me, might have spoken about her before, who always does when she's drunk asking if I'm out and wanting to tell me something important. I was a...
It's funny, when I worked at my previous Leisure Centre we used to go out all the time, nearly every weekend. Now, I move to another one in under the same trust but still live in the same place yet no-one seems to go out anymore ... or at least when I get a weekend off. What the hell?
On a...
... for now at least.
So I went to go pick my stuff after my recent break-up, and I didn't realise how tough it was going to be. I couldn't even look at her without it feeling like I was being stabbed. It's funny because I never thought I'd fall for someone so strong so quick again, never...
Thanks to those that posted about my previous entry. I appreciate the kind words and I love how positive and supportive this community is. Your words have made me smile this morning when I didn't think I would.
I think I know what went wrong - I was me, I was open and honest ... she lied.
I...
My so-called girlfrirend has just dumped me by text saying that she's "kind of back with my ex" which I can't say doesn't sting. In fact ... well, I feel it was coming, I was just waiting for her to make the excuse.
I would really like to know just what is so fundamentally wrong with me that...
After all this time, I think I might actually be in a relationship ... and I think it's going downhill already. I wish I knew what went through a woman's heads sometimes.
After being on holiday and not seeing each other for a week, she's blown me off 2 nights in a row now. I saw her yesterday...
I start my new job tomorrow for real. I've been promoted to Duty Manager of a large leisure centre and I'm bricking it! I'm starting to have doubts that I can even do the job - I know deep down that I have what it takes, that I have the knowledge and skills but there just seems too much to take...
... but I can't find the motivation :confused:
I'm in a little bit of a training slump at the moment and can't seem to find a good routine to fit in my training with my new job hours. Today was the first time I've been able to train, I tried the 300 challenge workout: -
- 25 Pull-ups
- 50...
I've just come back from a night out with my best friends from Uni who have come to visit. I'm sat here a little drunk wondering "what is my life missing right now?"
I feel like everybody else I know and love is progressing while my life is completely stagnated. I'm not moving forward, I'm not...
Can some people just be unlucky in love? Are some people just terminally inept at it? It can't just be me ... the law of averages dictates that out of 7 billion people, there must be more than me. I'm not going to make this out to be some sort of sob-story. I figure it must just be the women...
This weekend I headed back to my old Uni city and met up with my friends, what a time we had.
Things that made it great :biggrin1:
1. Getting excessively wasted with some of my best friends
2. Being back where I actually feel at home
3. Spending time with some of the most insteresting and...