Sometimes life can feel like a long, detailed story someone is following, and certain events feel like a changing chapter. I'm at one of those stages right now. One part of my little story is over, and the next is about to begin.
This section of my life story ended abruptly, and violently. It was one of those events that changes you, no matter how many times and ways you may have experienced it already. And the timing of it... Again: Fuck You Universe. Just in case you didn't hear me the first thousand times.
While my trauma will haunt me, I'm sure, I'm not going to stop trying to live. I wasn't put here to be what I want to be, and I don't actually believe in individual purpose anyway so I'll just have to accept my reality and enjoy what I do have in this life I've been given. I have a person who truly loves me, and would miss me forever if I die. I have someone who takes care of me, who I take care of, and who isn't afraid of the REAL me. He suffers with me, and he wants only for me to be happy. Not for him, for me. I will never stop trying to love my life again, for the love of my life. He deserves all of me, so I'm going to do my best to give it to him.
This section of my life story ended abruptly, and violently. It was one of those events that changes you, no matter how many times and ways you may have experienced it already. And the timing of it... Again: Fuck You Universe. Just in case you didn't hear me the first thousand times.
While my trauma will haunt me, I'm sure, I'm not going to stop trying to live. I wasn't put here to be what I want to be, and I don't actually believe in individual purpose anyway so I'll just have to accept my reality and enjoy what I do have in this life I've been given. I have a person who truly loves me, and would miss me forever if I die. I have someone who takes care of me, who I take care of, and who isn't afraid of the REAL me. He suffers with me, and he wants only for me to be happy. Not for him, for me. I will never stop trying to love my life again, for the love of my life. He deserves all of me, so I'm going to do my best to give it to him.