I continue to look back longingly to my time in chastity. I wish I had my Holy Trainer now - it would help me through lock-down. Stroking my tits was all I could do, and it drove me so crazy I did it only sparingly. The only thing that gave me relief was serving a guy - any guy.
But one day sticks in my memory. I was meeting my Master on one of our rare one-to-ones, and I messed up. I was 50 minutes late. My punishment was 50 hard strokes of the cane on each butt cheek. I was howling. My butt took weeks to recover. And yet I can't get the experience out of my mind. Extreme pain is addictive. I fear it, but I want it - need it. I want to experience it again.
A true pain pig can turn pain into pleasure - but what pleasure. I look at chewbacca on www.bdsmlr.com - controlled by his Master, bullwhip-trainer, and can only gaze and admire the way that guy guides his subby through the pain. Of course, the bonus comes at the end, when his Master takes him in his arms and he hears the words, 'Good boy'. Vanilla sex is just nothing in comparison.
But one day sticks in my memory. I was meeting my Master on one of our rare one-to-ones, and I messed up. I was 50 minutes late. My punishment was 50 hard strokes of the cane on each butt cheek. I was howling. My butt took weeks to recover. And yet I can't get the experience out of my mind. Extreme pain is addictive. I fear it, but I want it - need it. I want to experience it again.
A true pain pig can turn pain into pleasure - but what pleasure. I look at chewbacca on www.bdsmlr.com - controlled by his Master, bullwhip-trainer, and can only gaze and admire the way that guy guides his subby through the pain. Of course, the bonus comes at the end, when his Master takes him in his arms and he hears the words, 'Good boy'. Vanilla sex is just nothing in comparison.