Day One - Busy Working, Mind thinking of the Gutter

Thanks!
Thanks to those that are following this horribly written blog, your support is extremely helpful. Whether you privately messaged me or publicly posted comments, both forms are humbling and very appreciative. It is good to know that I am not the only one going through this OR the only one that wants greener grass under their feet versus over that hill over there.

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Yesterday was easy. Midday I decided to come clean and start this "blog". I am not the quickest thinker / writer therefore it took up a lot of time that could have been spent searching for the "Greatest Blowjob EVAAAA". (No, I haven't search that, but it would be a great name for a vid...mind is wandering, 20 pushups, damn.). Anyway, yesterday was busy so my mind and hands were far from idle. "Idle minds / hands are the devils workshop" certainly rings true with me BUT being devilish is not a bad thing. I am sure my wife and most women can agree with that a devilish mate is more fun to play with.

Yesterday was an interesting day as I was alone for a majority of it. I work from home and my clients are scattered across the world therefore I am constantly online and always a few key strokes away from naughty noises and visuals. I was busy, had real business things to do and curiosities to solve. I spent a good amount of time on conference calls and emails, preparing and slow cooking a mean batch of sloppy joes for the evening (based off this recipe) and researching things for personal projects. There were a few instances where my mind wandered into naughty-land…but it didn't venture into an online porn binge partly because I had things to do. I allowed myself to think through some of the fantasies and countered them with some pushups. Every instance the brain went dirty, 20 push ups. In all, throughout the day I ended with 80 pushups…which made me laugh as that is probably less than a workout should be. Maybe I need to think dirty thoughts more often as it is a good workout plan!

The process of fantasizing yesterday was interesting because rather than just letting them kick around in my brain, I examined what I was thinking because I wanted to know if it was worth it and why it happened. This process seemingly slowed things down, made them less, "unzip, pull it out, play". Knowing that pushups loomed, not as a punishment but as a supplement, it made me want to get the best out of the fantasy. Was the fantasy about me, my wife, another person, porn, what? I have come to the conclusion that it was just about pleasure and somewhat irrespective of myself, just pleasure. The act of being happy, feeling wanted, feeling like something out there wants me to be happy. I like being happy!

So today, busy again and work is looming! Hopefully more later...

Mr. G

Side notes: I think at the end of blog posts I am going to throw out some ideas to talk through at a later time. These are my personal "footnotes" if you will as my brain is currently full and unable to cache anything more. Reboot my brain, Google/Apple, do you have an app for that?

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Current Scorecard:
Pushups = 80
Mind wanderings = 4 or so
Playtime = 0
Sexy time = 0
Porn-quest =0

Footnotes:
Book Club forum for porn/erotica, Adult playgrounds both clothed and naughty, tantric sex / yoga, "Open" friendships, is it biologically possible?

Comments

Well, shoot, if I did pushups every time... :eek5: I'd be a twig with super-buff arms! :arms:

You're really gonna get a great workout this month!!!
 

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