Do You Love Yourself?

I started puberty before my 11th birthday. At the young age of 10 I was taller than boys in my neighborhood who were 12 and although I was height/weight proportional, I began to get a complex because I weighed more than other boys my age. It wasn't until I was 12 and in 7th grade when I first saw other boys nude in the gym locker room and showers that I realized my cock and balls were also advanced compared to theirs.

At that time in my life I had no idea bigger was considered better. All I knew is I didn't have the same pre-pubescent penis my friends had and I felt awkward. I was teased and I know now it was probably envy, but at that age I only felt like a freak.

If I recall correctly I was 14 when it seemed other boys caught up with me in terms of height and weight and pubic hair. The area where I still didn't fit was my penis. By then I did realize males wished for a bigger cock and I had one. I would occasionally see one of the gym teachers nude and my 14 year old dick was larger than their adult sizes. Rather than gloating about being bigger, what stood out to me was their body hair.

I equated body hair with masculinity when I was a boy. I dreamed of the day I would also have hair on my chest and and legs. It never came. I had the bush, but otherwise I was and am pretty hairless. I made up for my smooth body by acting more masculine to make sure everyone knew I was.

My point with this post is we all have to learn to accept ourselves as we are. There are things like diet and exercise we can do to improve upon what we were born to be, but once I realized my height, my weight, my lack of body hair, and my penis size didn't define me, I became happier and more confident.

My wife and I are so lucky to have three great kids. We have raised them to be confident about their bodies. They are now 16, 18, and 20 and all of them are very well adjusted about themselves. They all work to be their best selves, and accept things about themselves they may wish was different. I feel like I am successful in my life for this achievement alone. If you are lucky enough to be a parent, be aware of the impact you can make on your kid's self-esteem.

I can wish I had the body of Adonis, but I don't. I have to work hard just to avoid gaining weight and buying larger clothes. I have managed to maintain my weight and waist size for a long time and I realize my buddies my age have mostly not been able to do this. I accept who I am. I love who am.

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I am definitely struggling with my personal perception of my body right now. Being in quarantine and not having a gym like i usually do has caused me to be very hard on myself. This was really nice to read though. I am working on my thought process but it is hard
 
Thanks man. I accept myself for what I am right now, but I don't stop working on trying to be better. I think when we are too hard on ourselves we get depressed and that doesn't help us in the goal to be better.

Alex
 
I find how people perceive themselves to be fascinating. There are parts of us that we have convinced ourselves that other people must notice because we do.

A female friend of mine pointed out something that she's always hated about her body and I genuinely wasn't even aware of it until she pointed it out.

There are two things that bother me about my own body (muscles excluded because I can change that with will power):-

My lack of height (5'7") and unusually my hips. I think my hips are too wide. Such a daft thing to be conscious of but...

They both bother me but ultimately I can't change them and there are worse things I could be worried about. I would say that my height affects dating though, particularly with women as I think it's fair to say a lot of them love a tall guy.
 
@Petnax,
I agree that most women like taller guys so I understand your feelings. I have noticed in the past few years I see more couples with the female taller than the male. It seems people are breaking down some of their past self-imposed barriers. I just looked at your pix again. I think you have a great body. I would never think about your hips being wide. I am curious if you weighed more at any point in your life and still see yourself that way?

Alex
 
@Hanging6x6

I've never been obese but I have been overweight for my height or at least my body fat percentage has been near the mid twenties. I've never weighed more than 13 stone (182 pounds) but currently sitting around ~11 stone something (~154 pounds).
 
The reason I asked is sometimes we carry old feelings with us even nought we have changed. Personall, I think you look proportional and have a beautiful body you can be proud of.
 

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