The competition game has gotten me more than tired. I use to love being number1 in sex for my partners...but recently my fav fuck buddy said i dropped to 3rd place for him..at first i was like 'oh hell no! i'm so going to get my spot back!"
but as time went by and no more hookups with us occurred, and he kept reminding me my spot had dropped. I start feeling insecure, why should i try so hard for #1 with someone i don't have passion for, and is only a really good fuck anymore.
The secrecy and hiding of it all got to me finally, i hate being hidden, even if im just a fb.
At least my other partner, lets call him LilB lol, he was proud to show me off and didn't care who knew we were doing it, and always cuddled with me after, made me feel somewhat special i guess...he hadn't ever gotten me off, but it was still fun and his personality always made me smile.
I haven't seen my boyfriend for almost 2weeks now bc of the holidays, i don't have thaaat much of an urge to do it, but i am tempted to try to do Greeneyes, but he's being a total flake and i really don't know why i continue to chase him.
---fbuddies sux sometimes
but as time went by and no more hookups with us occurred, and he kept reminding me my spot had dropped. I start feeling insecure, why should i try so hard for #1 with someone i don't have passion for, and is only a really good fuck anymore.
The secrecy and hiding of it all got to me finally, i hate being hidden, even if im just a fb.
At least my other partner, lets call him LilB lol, he was proud to show me off and didn't care who knew we were doing it, and always cuddled with me after, made me feel somewhat special i guess...he hadn't ever gotten me off, but it was still fun and his personality always made me smile.
I haven't seen my boyfriend for almost 2weeks now bc of the holidays, i don't have thaaat much of an urge to do it, but i am tempted to try to do Greeneyes, but he's being a total flake and i really don't know why i continue to chase him.
---fbuddies sux sometimes