Free at last!

Some of you may already know about this or have suspected something. Think now is as good a time as any so I'm going to write about this topic now. Last December I decided it was time to make a cut regarding a certain matter, and that has caused me some stress and sleepless nights since then. The spreading of the coronavirus with the restrictions following in its wake didn't make things easier.
I can only assume that some of you will be disappointed by this development but I did this for my own happiness. So I hope you're understanding of my decision.

So where do I begin? A list of events that affected how I viewed my foreskin seems like a good start:
  • Still remember how I was supposed to get circumcised due to medical reasons when I was younger. However my mother was strictly against it so that didn't happen.
  • Remember being a teenager and reading in a book on sexuality that the foreskin is supposed to slide back behind the head on its own during an erection. That didn't happen in my case which always made me feel like not being normal [know it's normal now]. There were also illustrations of uncut dicks compared to cut dicks that caught my attention.
  • Remember seeing my brother's soft dick, and his head was visible. This kinda made me envious, maybe because it seemed superior to what I had. In hindsight I would guess that he just had a short foreskin while I had significant overhang.
  • My foreskin didn't separate from my head on its own. I had to forcefully separate foreskin and head as my foreskin was still attached to the corona of my head when I was teenager.
  • Repeatedly got a condition called balanitis which only has stopped since I tried to wear my foreskin pulled back most of the time.
I think if only one of these incidents had happened things might have turned out differently but in their sum they shaped how much I identified my foreskin as something less than awesome. So it became more like a nuisance, a source of inferior feelings and shame, a source of health problems. For years I tried different methods to keep my foreskin retracted but nothing really worked for me so I gave up this endeavor.

So why am I writing all this down you may ask? Well, some of you may remember or may have noticed that I wasn't on LPSG for a few days recently. The reason for that was that I had to travel to another town. Had gotten a recommendation for a urologist there, and had booked an appointment with the urology practice he was working at seven weeks prior to this.
If you haven't guessed it by now, my life as an uncut man ended on March 19. Was both exited and nervous about getting circumcised. It was only a minor surgical procedure done under local anesthesia. The injection barely hurt, and the atmosphere was quite relaxed. Was able to chat with the urologist and his assistant, and got to look at my dick from time to time when I was asked if I was ok with certain cuts. All in all it was nothing to have been nervous about.

Regarding style I neither wanted a low cut nor a partial circumcision. I mean if you're going to get cut then do it right. So I specifically asked to keep as much inner foreskin as possible, and to make it as tight as possible as well. Although most doctors here seem to strongly prefer low and tight circumcisions this one is willing to do high and tight cuts (that's why he was recommended to me in the first place). My first impression is that I ended up with a pretty high and tight cut. Depending on the final outcome after everything's healed I have the option to undergo a revision. I was told by the urologist that he wouldn't cut off more skin during the initial procedure because it's going to be quite tight already. You can always cut off more skin later on, but what's gone is gone!

So currently it's day 12 post-surgery. There's still some swelling going on. I'm pretty sure I'll end up with a permanently bare knob when everything's said and done, and that my only chance of ever covering my head again will be docking with another guy. That's the result I wanted and what was hoping for though, so no complaints.
Finally, those nagging thoughts in the back of my mind ("what if...") that I had for years can finally be put to rest. Also, this may sound weird but in a way I feel this is the kind of cock I should have had from the very beginning.
Now I can't wait to see what it looks like when totally healed. Meanwhile not being able to really jerk off doesn't help in reducing waiting time. ;)

Here are some pics of my new toy (click on the link below to see more):
https://www.lpsg.com/gallery/albums/cock-2-0.378701/
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Comments

I have to say that it is stunningly beautiful in both forms.

I would really be interested to hear in the year(s) ahead how you reflect on and feel about: glans dryness, glans sensitivity, and just the general transition to having a tight cut. I have a pretty loose foreskin, so it is hard for me to imagine what it's like to have a tight and retracted erection.
 
@Rockylane I should've asked to keep it. Would've gladly donated it. However I got asked a few times during the procedure if I wanted more skin to be cut off for a tighter result. Each time I replied something like "Yes, do it!", so it must have been at least four strips of skin. Not sure how useful those would have been for that purpose!
 
@Shofixti Due to many years of experimenting with keeping my foreskin retracted it's already quite dry and less sensitive than it used to be. So I'm not sure there'll be much of an effect in this regard.
What's definitely gone are the ridged band and some nerves that used to be part of my frenulum before tying it. Will see how that feels when everything's healed.
Will keep the idea of update posts about the feelings/sensitivity in the back of my mind. :)
 
Wow ... good for you bud... I wanted to do that too, I don’t have any sexual issues, is just I’m very particular about higiene, I’m tier to dab every time I take a lick, I have pull the skin back, and clean up, I always carried Kleenex or tissue everywhere, or just use toilet paper, anyway ..my Doctor completely discourage me for prosead with the surgery, one.-it was very expansive, I was in Law School couldn’t afore it. Two.- very painful (he said) three.-I’ll have bad scaring, Fourth .- I have to take meds to inhibit me for having a hard on while is healing. and like you masturbation or penetration for a while, and keep making follow up appointments with the urologist/sergeant to see the progress, but what scared me the must is the scaring.. so I let that idea go. Wen I became a lawyer, and started making real money I thought about it again, but I fail in love with a gorgeous Marine, he loved my u/c dick..he always wanted to be u/c he said repeatedly wen he played with my dick, and then I’m started to appreciate the benefits of having foreskin.
I commanded you for such bravery, I’m sure the results are worth any discomfort, you do have a gorgeous cock either way.
 

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