Fucked up perfection

Hello anybody, its me... for those who know who i am, i am back home and like i told u, i began my 3 month long fuck fest... last saturday i finally had sex since january.. it was awesome for me, but the girl i was with had a lot of pain... she hadnt had sex for 4 months also, so she was tight again....

anyway we are kinda like a couple and i discovered something about myself....

I've spent all my life lookin for perfection, and when I achieve it... i cant accept it!

For example.. i just went through a very long conversation with this girl about how i feel that i cant please her, on stuff like i feel i dont give her great kisses or sex or love etc etc... and she keeps insisting that its not true! that i keep sayin shit that its not true

i feel i dont have a body good enough for her or a cock big enough or good enough at sex, etc etc... WHY DO I FEEL THAT WAY? she insists that my body is very hot, that i already hit the bottom of her vagina and that the sex is incredible... BUT I FEEL THAT EITHER IS NOT TRUE or i can be better, i look for excuses not to believe...

I feel so fuckin confused and i hate it!! DAMN IM ON VACATION AND I STILL FIND SOMETHING TO KEEP ME UP AT NIGHT!!

Well... just letting off some steam... cya and sorry for the random thoughts

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Are you afraid to take the relationship to the next level? Why are you so convinced that you are flawed? Instead of examining your body, why not examine your relationship? Looking for excuses to bail could easily keep you up all night.

Just my $00.02.
 
My guess is the way you feel about yourself comes into play whenever you are in a relationship. For some reason, feelings of YOUR OWN inadequacy in whatever shape or form, fill your mind. You can't seem to fathom that somebody may love you just the way you are because you have a hard time loving yourself.

You feel other people perceive you the way you perceive yourself.

Work on that and your relationships will be more fulfilling.

Trust me.
 

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