I am so very tired.

I was on the brink of tears this morning and couldn't figure out why. I over analyze everything, so of course I thought it was my depression rearing it's ugly head again. Then it dawned me; I am exhausted, physically, mentally, and emotionally. I am just whipped. :frown1:

Dad is still in the hospital and mom and I have spent most of our days and nights with him there.

Daddy was supposed to come home yesterday but apparently his blood pressure dropped too low and he almost fainted so they moved him to ICU. :eek:

Forgot to mention that Monday they had to put a stent in. It is a relatively minor procedure. but for some reason Tanner-Villa Rica couldn't do it they had to transport him to Tanner -Carrolton via ambulance then back to Villa Rica. It's only 20 minutes away but none of us were thrilled with him having to leave and come back as dad doesn't always adjust to change very well lately.

The nurses in the ICU suck! The good ones are inattentive. The rest are surly, inconsiderate, and totally lacking in compassion or basic common sense.:mad: After much questioning of his nurse and at the nurses desk we were able to find out that his blood pressure dropped because of the stalevo, so they took him off it. The problem with that is that the stalevo is his Parkinson's medicine. When we got there yesterday we were shocked and frightened to find dad trembling, slurring his words, and generally disoriented. It took 2 hours to find out what they had done or not done. Grrrrrr! They acted like we had no right to question or be informed of his treatment.

My Meneiere's was acting up so I didn't go to the hospital with mom today. She got back a little while ago and said he was doing fine and should be released tomorrow.

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NJQT- I am sorry to hear about your dad. I feel for patients who don't have loving caring family to stay on top of their loved one's medical care while hospitalized.
My dad is very ill right now too and I know what you are going through. My heart goes out to you and my prayers are with you. Hang in there.
 
Hope things get better for you soon. I know who you feel. I feel so burned out myself. I'm on the brink of tears many times...
 
Sorry to hear you having such a hard time with everything NJ. I hope that you get a little time to rest and recuperate. I also hope that your father is on the path to recovery.
 
QT-pie, your exhaustion comes as no surprise. Your life is revolving around the depressing environment of the hospital; watching someone who you saw as being invincible when you were a child now being reduced to a mortal and dependant being; feeling completely helpless and inadequate to lead him to good health; dealing with the incompetence and lack of care from the nursing staff...all of these things are bound to take their toll. I have no doubt that you are living, eating, sleeping and breathing your father's being in hospital and until you are able to put it behind you and resume your daily journey with new experiences, you are going to feel completely wiped out.

I hope that you will be able to take a break once your father is discharged so that you can get some rest and catch up with yourself. In the meantime, please know that I am here for you and that I'm sending my thoughts, care and prayers your way!

Love ya hunny!
 
You have to be adamnant,about what you expect of them,and how you want to be apprised, of what's going on with his care.
You know this.
Saying prayers for Daddy.
cigarbabe:saevil:
 
Hi NJQT: Sorry to hear that you're dad isn't doing so well. Get some rest and take care of yourself.
 
I know how very emotionally and physically draining looking after an ill loved one can be, NJ. I wish you the very best, please take some time for yourself!
 
Cigarbabe is right. Stay on their case or they will blow your father off. Fortunately, my mother was a hospital Director and RN so they never messed about on her. My Gran was a retired RN too.

I'm pulling and praying for you babe.
 
NJQT,

Some things just are not fair. We can go on about the unfairness or we can get to work on what we can do. I am in no way suggesting you have succumbed to the former, but I heartily encourage you to hang in there with the latter. As part of that, you must take care of yourself.

Yes, humans can endure amazing things, but stress... that intangible element that tenses our muscles and tears up our guts, makes us more prone to cancer and shorter with our patience... stress can be a killer.

So, take care of your self so that you can help your loved ones.

Best,
MBe
 

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