I can't make up my mind.

Ick. I can't figure out what I want to do with my life... I just know that it has to involve helping children. I enrolled for spring classes back in October... I had enrolled myself in whatever was required to get a degree in Social Work. Today is the first day of classes... so I show up on campus bright and early, and head to the nearest cafe to get myself a caramel steamer. I then take a seat and start wasting time until class starts. I started thinking about the classes I was taking, and it dawned on me... they fucking suck. I have no desire to take ANY of those classes. I know they are required to get my degree in Social Work, but surely I can find another way to help children. Hell, in all honesty, I guess I could have a job completely unrelated to working with kids and still find time OUTSIDE of work to work with kids... so now I'm roaming. I ended up coming to the library and skipping my first two classes so I could completely rearrange my class schedule. I was enrolled in four boring classes (sociology, math, history, and music) and I dropped three of them... I only stayed in the sociology class. I then enrolled myself in a political science class, and two criminal justice classes. I have no idea what I intend to do with those credits, but damnit... that's what I want to take. *sigh*

Am I making a mistake? Bleh.

Not much else is going on in my life. Now that school is back, I'll probably be on here a lot less... between school and my two part time jobs, I don't know how much time I'll have to sleep, much less blog and post. I'll find a way though. :biggrin: I can't stay away from this place for long.

I cut my hair in half and dyed it red. So now it's a really short cut (but I love it) and it's two different shades of red. The naturally dark brown part of my hair is now a deep red, and the part that had been bleached is now bright red. I love it. I also got new glasses, but I won't actually have them in my possession until the 28th. They had to be shipped off to get all the protective coating and anti-glare shit done to them. I'm excited about those as well. Tomorrow, while Skyler is at school, I think I'm gonna try to get two of my tattoos touched up - they're looking a little rough.

I love having money. :biggrin: I was able to pay off about $500 in bills. And I got a new cell phone since mine had been shut off a couple months back. I think I'm also going to get a gym membership and just pay them for six months in advance, that way I don't have to worry about paying them again until fall, when I get another round of student loans. At the YMCA, I'll qualify for a scholarship and will have to pay very little (if any) monthly fees. I'll be able to go at least three days a week with no problem. I'm pretty effin happy. :smile:

I guess that's about all. I know I just basically said a whole lot of nothing, but I don't have shit else to do until noon. I think I'm gonna go grab a bit to eat now, though. Ya'll have a good one!

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I can't make up my mind.

Posted by TattooedMamaMeg
Ick. I can't figure out what I want to do with my life... I just know that it has to involve helping children. I enrolled for spring classes back in October... I had enrolled myself in whatever was required to get a degree in Social Work. Today is the first day of classes... so I show up on campus bright and early, and head to the nearest cafe to get myself a caramel steamer. I then take a seat and start wasting time until class starts. I started thinking about the classes I was taking, and it dawned on me... they fucking suck. I have no desire to take ANY of those classes. I know they are required to get my degree in Social Work, but surely I can find another way to help children. Hell, in all honesty, I guess I could have a job completely unrelated to working with kids and still find time OUTSIDE of work to work with kids... so now I'm roaming. I ended up coming to the library and skipping my first two classes so I could completely rearrange my class schedule. I was enrolled in four boring classes (sociology, math, history, and music) and I dropped three of them... I only stayed in the sociology class. I then enrolled myself in a political science class, and two criminal justice classes. I have no idea what I intend to do with those credits, but damnit... that's what I want to take. *sigh*

Am I making a mistake? Bleh.

I guess that's about all. I know I just basically said a whole lot of nothing, but I don't have shit else to do until noon. I think I'm gonna go grab a bit to eat now, though. Ya'll have a good one!

I'm glad the student loan money finally came through so that you can feel human again. :smile: I almost had to go on food stamps in graduate school.

As a veteran of the college game I have to say I think you may have made a tiny mistake. :redface: Required classes suck; but they are a mandatory requirement no matter where you attend college. The way I got around what you are feeling now was to take one class just for me each semester. Taking an entire semester of courses 'just for me' was not a luxury I could afford. :frown1:

One semester I took Intro to Skiing which fulfilled my phys. ed. requirement. It was fun and became a life long love of mine. Another semester I took lifeguarding because I love to swim and when the summer came I got a job I loved at a YMCA camp because I love kids and the water. There are ways to do this without wasting an entire semester on classes which won't count towards anything.


This is the mean, though practical njqt466 talking: You are a single mom, you must have a degree in order to provide a better life for you and your son. The next few years will be beyond hard emotionally, physically and financially; but the means justifys the end. Suck it up and do it! I know you can! You are an awesome woman with more depth, passion, intelligence; and beauty than you are aware. :cool:
 
Well.. the classes I'm taking can actually be used towards a different degree that is not entirely unlike what I wanted to do... just not exactly what I had originally planned. But do I REALLY want to be a social worker? I almost don't care what my title is, as long as I can work with kids dealing with hardship.
 
from my experience, social work and/or education are the degrees that will most easily translate to what you want to do. like NJ said, you're going to have to take a lot of boring, awful classes until about your 3rd year or possibly later. get the requirements done and out of the way so you're not like some friends of mine were-- with completed coursework for 1 or more majors but with a few semesters of requirements to fill.

you're doing a good thing for yourself, and if you are unsure about exactly what major you're going to end up sticking with, you're better off getting electives out of the way now (and possibly find something you love by taking them) and focusing on what you major in later.
 
I did the "I want to work with kids" thing and was so bored to tears with the classes. I got my nice corporate job and not only did things part time for kids (Boys and Girls Club, Cub Scouts, Community Mentoring, etc.) I even got the company to kick in for it and even sponsor events.

You always have such a big heart, whatever you do will be helping others. My wife started wanting to do social work, ended up in nursing, and does both. Helped Alzheimer's patients for a living and then volunteered through church and other organizations for children's needs.

You'll find it Megs and when you do, you'll be great at it.

And now that you got your new phone, you need to call me with the new number missy. :wink:
 

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