I have decided to give up on relationships.

In my opinion, it's very important to realize and understand your limitations. I've come to the conclusion that I'm really not well suited for romantic relationships. I have too many issues with sex and intimacy to connect with someone on that level. So I've decided that instead of wasting my time and money, and the time/money of some poor woman, I will opt to be single.

I've come to this conclusion because after I broke up with my last girlfriend, I entered into a state of depression. This had less to do with breaking up with her, than it did with the fear of being alone and my various regrets from that relationship. I never connected with her emotionally or sexually and I rregret that because it was my fault. I think she wanted to connect with me in that way, but I couldn't bring myself to do it. I failed her and I failed myself as well, because I wanted to connect with her on that level, but I just didn't know how. After a long period of introspection, I've come to the realization that it's not so much that I don't know how to connect with someone physically and emotionally, it's that I can't.

There's always been something off about me and this is just, me finally realizing it. Other people have understood that for years, but now I think I'm really starting to understand it and accept it. I think, I've been trying to lead a life that wasn't suited for me, and I've been trying to do that for a long time. I think this is the source of my unhappiness.

I cannot be create emotional connections with human beings and I should really accept that part of my personality and move on.