Guess I'll finish this while it's fresh in my mind and I'll still get hard thinking about it.
So where was I? Oh yes, giving my first blowjob to a guy. He was standing while I was sitting on my bed. He's not that tall, and I haven't unlocked the achievement for giving blowjobs at different angles, so it was kind of difficult, but I managed to get a few good licks in. After rubbing the teeth marks off his dick with my tongue, we stopped and he laid me on my back, him facing away from me, and started sucking my dick again. I thought it felt good with his tongue on the bottom of my dick, but it may have felt even better at the top, or maybe I was just happy I was getting head for the first time. He went at it for what seemed like an eternity but it was probably like 3 minutes lol, sucking light then increasing the intensity, even going almost down the shaft. When he did that, it was just about a wrap. I felt myself coming again and I tried to be a champ and hold it in, and he stopped for a second, but the need to cum was stronger, so I just said to keep going, and sweet baby Jesus he did. I came and he kept sucking and sucking, meanwhile I'm seeing visions of the future and shouting "Oh fuck! Aww fuck yeah!" When I stopped convulsing and loosened my Chinese death grip from his neck, I realized nothing was spilled all over me. This dude swallowed every drop! Of course, the shocked look on my face made him laugh and he leaned back next to me and kissed me. Note to self: I like getting my dick sucked. Just gotta calm the fuck down when I do.
It was finally my turn and I was pretty energetic about it. Besides, what type of guy would I be if I sat back and got what I needed and left my partner out? Guess I'm a people pleaser. So I sat him back and went at it. Sucking dick is pretty hot, knowing I'm the one giving him (or her nowadays...) that pleasure, that he's entrusting his manhood to me for that moment to provide that service to it, and that I'm in control, and all I want is to make him feel good. I was relaxed a bit more in that position and I went to town on that dick, treating it like I would my own. Licking the shaft, licking the head, sucking it soft, sucking it hard and as deep as I could, and then I went to his balls for a bit. When I did, I caught a whiff of that unmistakable man scent. It was... almost intoxicating. I swear it turned me on even more. Not too overpowering, but definitely not timid. I took each ball in my mouth, sucking it and caressing it with my tongue, even tugging it a bit. It was improvised, but he liked it a lot. I went back to his dick and tried to be a champ and go all the way down. No bueno again lol. He stopped me after a bit and guided me back to him and we made out.
I looked at him, pretty much lost at what to do next lol, but already turned on again at the same time. He lifted his legs, brought me closer to him, and enclosed his legs. Man his body was so warm, so comforting. I could sit there all day, just touching him, kissing him, but we had a time constraint. He started jerking himself off and we were making out intensely. Tongues intertwining, lip biting, my face as close to his as possible kind of making out. I started grinding my body against his as we made out and he jerked himself faster. He was close; he was ready to cum. He was ready to cum for me of all people. This was the hottest part of it all- the closeness of it, the passion, the masculinity- all of it combining to produce the just about the best feeling a guy can have, and I wanted to help him get there. I started saying "Yeah come on! Give it to me! Give me that cum!". Didn't know I was the dirty talk type lol. Note to self there. He kissed me harder and then he came, probably four shots going across his chest and stomach. Man it was hot! I calmed down and wondered if I should return the favor and lick something somewhere cum stained, though I'm not too fond of the taste of cum, but then I've only tried my own long ago. Luckily, he said, "Don't! Don't you dare come close!" He was the hyper sensitive type when he cums haha. I even tried to go to the balls and he threatened to punch me in mine... I tend to get sensitive too but man his level must be like scratching a chalkboard.
He finally got up from his coma and asked for a towel and I obliged. I was still naked and looking at him, I was already ready for round two but sadly, it was over for that time. He complimented my low hanging balls, washed himself up a bit and to prove it wasn't totally meaningless, he gave me a goodbye kiss. It was borderline adorable lol. I told him thank you and mentioned he was the first guy I've ever had, as I did numerous times earlier as I was babbling through my nervousness, and he laughed and said "Well I hope you enjoyed it. We should do it again sometime." I guess I wasn't a total goofball or nervous wreck throughout the experience that I scared him off completely. He left, I sat on my bed, the bed that I lost my virginity on, and thought.
What does this mean? Do I feel any different? Rewinding the entire experience, I got horny again and jerked off! Note to self: I recover quick with actual sex, or at least that time I did. I only wished he was sucking my dick at that moment. Man that felt good!
So now, sitting here, a non-virgin, I have to say: WHY THE HELL DIDN'T ANYONE TELL ME HOW GREAT SEX IS? I've only told a handful of people about my former status, and they just say "Hey, it'll happen when it happens" or "Meh, it's overrated." Well it's not when you're not having any anytime you want to! What was I so afraid of that it took this long? Not that I had a time limit of when to lose it, but I wish I wasn't still so new at this age. Not that 26 is old but come on, I knew about sex since my teens so that's a lot of years of inactivity. Then I imagine monks that take a lifetime of celibacy and then I don't feel as bad. Hopefully they still jerk off; at least then they'll never have trouble opening a pickle jar. So what does this say about my sexuality? I have mine as 60% str/40% gay, and it's not far off. I most certainly like females. Their beauty, their femininity, their shape, and even some of their attitudes lol. But there's something about guys I can't ignore. Their musculature, their masculinity, their confidence (which applies to both genders, but it looks better on guys for me lol). I've been trying to deny that side of me for so long, hoping it will go away, shunning it off as just a phase, probably because of my upbringing, but it was foolish of me to try to run from a part of me. It is who I am. I didn't choose this attraction; it chose me.
Now to find a nice girl. To fuck. No, not on the first night, but once 12:01 am hits, she is fair game right?
So where was I? Oh yes, giving my first blowjob to a guy. He was standing while I was sitting on my bed. He's not that tall, and I haven't unlocked the achievement for giving blowjobs at different angles, so it was kind of difficult, but I managed to get a few good licks in. After rubbing the teeth marks off his dick with my tongue, we stopped and he laid me on my back, him facing away from me, and started sucking my dick again. I thought it felt good with his tongue on the bottom of my dick, but it may have felt even better at the top, or maybe I was just happy I was getting head for the first time. He went at it for what seemed like an eternity but it was probably like 3 minutes lol, sucking light then increasing the intensity, even going almost down the shaft. When he did that, it was just about a wrap. I felt myself coming again and I tried to be a champ and hold it in, and he stopped for a second, but the need to cum was stronger, so I just said to keep going, and sweet baby Jesus he did. I came and he kept sucking and sucking, meanwhile I'm seeing visions of the future and shouting "Oh fuck! Aww fuck yeah!" When I stopped convulsing and loosened my Chinese death grip from his neck, I realized nothing was spilled all over me. This dude swallowed every drop! Of course, the shocked look on my face made him laugh and he leaned back next to me and kissed me. Note to self: I like getting my dick sucked. Just gotta calm the fuck down when I do.
It was finally my turn and I was pretty energetic about it. Besides, what type of guy would I be if I sat back and got what I needed and left my partner out? Guess I'm a people pleaser. So I sat him back and went at it. Sucking dick is pretty hot, knowing I'm the one giving him (or her nowadays...) that pleasure, that he's entrusting his manhood to me for that moment to provide that service to it, and that I'm in control, and all I want is to make him feel good. I was relaxed a bit more in that position and I went to town on that dick, treating it like I would my own. Licking the shaft, licking the head, sucking it soft, sucking it hard and as deep as I could, and then I went to his balls for a bit. When I did, I caught a whiff of that unmistakable man scent. It was... almost intoxicating. I swear it turned me on even more. Not too overpowering, but definitely not timid. I took each ball in my mouth, sucking it and caressing it with my tongue, even tugging it a bit. It was improvised, but he liked it a lot. I went back to his dick and tried to be a champ and go all the way down. No bueno again lol. He stopped me after a bit and guided me back to him and we made out.
I looked at him, pretty much lost at what to do next lol, but already turned on again at the same time. He lifted his legs, brought me closer to him, and enclosed his legs. Man his body was so warm, so comforting. I could sit there all day, just touching him, kissing him, but we had a time constraint. He started jerking himself off and we were making out intensely. Tongues intertwining, lip biting, my face as close to his as possible kind of making out. I started grinding my body against his as we made out and he jerked himself faster. He was close; he was ready to cum. He was ready to cum for me of all people. This was the hottest part of it all- the closeness of it, the passion, the masculinity- all of it combining to produce the just about the best feeling a guy can have, and I wanted to help him get there. I started saying "Yeah come on! Give it to me! Give me that cum!". Didn't know I was the dirty talk type lol. Note to self there. He kissed me harder and then he came, probably four shots going across his chest and stomach. Man it was hot! I calmed down and wondered if I should return the favor and lick something somewhere cum stained, though I'm not too fond of the taste of cum, but then I've only tried my own long ago. Luckily, he said, "Don't! Don't you dare come close!" He was the hyper sensitive type when he cums haha. I even tried to go to the balls and he threatened to punch me in mine... I tend to get sensitive too but man his level must be like scratching a chalkboard.
He finally got up from his coma and asked for a towel and I obliged. I was still naked and looking at him, I was already ready for round two but sadly, it was over for that time. He complimented my low hanging balls, washed himself up a bit and to prove it wasn't totally meaningless, he gave me a goodbye kiss. It was borderline adorable lol. I told him thank you and mentioned he was the first guy I've ever had, as I did numerous times earlier as I was babbling through my nervousness, and he laughed and said "Well I hope you enjoyed it. We should do it again sometime." I guess I wasn't a total goofball or nervous wreck throughout the experience that I scared him off completely. He left, I sat on my bed, the bed that I lost my virginity on, and thought.
What does this mean? Do I feel any different? Rewinding the entire experience, I got horny again and jerked off! Note to self: I recover quick with actual sex, or at least that time I did. I only wished he was sucking my dick at that moment. Man that felt good!
So now, sitting here, a non-virgin, I have to say: WHY THE HELL DIDN'T ANYONE TELL ME HOW GREAT SEX IS? I've only told a handful of people about my former status, and they just say "Hey, it'll happen when it happens" or "Meh, it's overrated." Well it's not when you're not having any anytime you want to! What was I so afraid of that it took this long? Not that I had a time limit of when to lose it, but I wish I wasn't still so new at this age. Not that 26 is old but come on, I knew about sex since my teens so that's a lot of years of inactivity. Then I imagine monks that take a lifetime of celibacy and then I don't feel as bad. Hopefully they still jerk off; at least then they'll never have trouble opening a pickle jar. So what does this say about my sexuality? I have mine as 60% str/40% gay, and it's not far off. I most certainly like females. Their beauty, their femininity, their shape, and even some of their attitudes lol. But there's something about guys I can't ignore. Their musculature, their masculinity, their confidence (which applies to both genders, but it looks better on guys for me lol). I've been trying to deny that side of me for so long, hoping it will go away, shunning it off as just a phase, probably because of my upbringing, but it was foolish of me to try to run from a part of me. It is who I am. I didn't choose this attraction; it chose me.
Now to find a nice girl. To fuck. No, not on the first night, but once 12:01 am hits, she is fair game right?