I feel so impatient, and it's bothering me how imatient I'm getting. I just want to propose, I want to be married to my boyfriend, I want to live with him, I want to be next to him each day when I wake up and go to sleep. I long for him all the time, and I want to be with him, but as I said, rather vaugely now that I look back on it, I don't want to propose until he is out to his family.
I love him so much, and I respect his family, and I want them to at least be in the loop. I'm sure they already know, he just hasn't said anything.
The thing I'm most impatient about is just that it's on him at this point. We've talked about it, and he knows I want to propose soon, he knows that he wants it to happen too, and he can't wait for it, but he's afraid to talk to his parents.
He never rushed me, and I certainly have never rushed him on coming out. It's a personal process that each person experiences differently. I don't bug him about this, nor do I bring it up to him, because I don't want to rush him or make him feel like he needs to come out so that we can be at the very least engaged soon.
That would be rude and disrespectful, and a disservice to our relationship.
I think I just needed to vent out my thoughts, and to let them out, because I keep getting so caught up in when he's going to do it so that I can do my thing, which sounds totally selfish saying it out loud, I just get caught up and can't think straight. It's weird.
I don't know how to describe it, but I'm willing to wait, I just don't like having to wait when I'm so ready to start a life together with him.
I love him so much, and I respect his family, and I want them to at least be in the loop. I'm sure they already know, he just hasn't said anything.
The thing I'm most impatient about is just that it's on him at this point. We've talked about it, and he knows I want to propose soon, he knows that he wants it to happen too, and he can't wait for it, but he's afraid to talk to his parents.
He never rushed me, and I certainly have never rushed him on coming out. It's a personal process that each person experiences differently. I don't bug him about this, nor do I bring it up to him, because I don't want to rush him or make him feel like he needs to come out so that we can be at the very least engaged soon.
That would be rude and disrespectful, and a disservice to our relationship.
I think I just needed to vent out my thoughts, and to let them out, because I keep getting so caught up in when he's going to do it so that I can do my thing, which sounds totally selfish saying it out loud, I just get caught up and can't think straight. It's weird.
I don't know how to describe it, but I'm willing to wait, I just don't like having to wait when I'm so ready to start a life together with him.