Im 18,straight,and had my first time with a guy.

Im only 18 and Thursday June 4,2009 was my first time i ever did anything with a guy.His name is Logan and he is 19.We work at the same place and we both started there on the same day which was in August of 2008.We began to hang out at his place after work to smoke some weed and shit.But this time i didnt know what would happen.So we are in his room and we just got done smoking some weed and snorting some roxy's so we were pretty high.I was sitting on the floor while he was sitting on a chair playing XBOX 360.I asked him when was the last time he had a blow-job and he said about 18-20 days ago.I was just wondering by the way.So i was getting bored and i asked him what he wanted to do and he said why dont you suck my Di*k.He said it to be funny thinking i wouldnt take it serious.I said alright and said are you serious and i said yeah.In a way i could tell he didnt want to do it but i said to him that it doesnt make us gay and it will be a one time thing.He got up and turned off the XBOX and tv and put some rock music on.I told him to lock the door cause he did have a roommate in the room across the way.So he got on the bed and laid down and i was sitting beside him and he pulled down his shorts.He was already hard.His penis was about 5 1/2 to 6 inches.I grabbed it and said your ready and he said yeah.So i started to suck it and it didnt bother me that i was.He told me to stick it all the way in my mouth which i did and gaged.Everytime i did it he would breath hard.I asked him if he ever got sucked my another guy and he said no.I then asked if he would do it again and he said yeah.Then out of no-where my mom called cause i was supposed to be home at 11:30 and it was already 12:22.As i was talking to my mom he began to jack-off and i said to him i have to go.He wasnt mad or anything he just got up to fix the CD that had been skipping since 12.I called him the next morning and told him "so what u think about last night?"He said "It was crazy".I asked if he would do it again and he said yeah.He said that after i left he rubbed on out and fell asleep(i didnt make him cum the first time cause i had to leave).A few days went by and i went to his house around 9 in the morning cause he had got me some weed.So we smoked some and i asked if he wanted to do it again.He said alright and i said i did once already so it doesnt matter.Then we go to his room and get on the bed.This time he wasnt hard.His penis was quite small when soft.I started sucking it again and deep throating it caused i knew he liked it.I started sucking just the head and saw him move his hand down then went back up.I didnt think much of it but then i felt something hit the back of my throat and as a reaction i swallowed,he had cummed.When that happened i started gagging cause i didnt want to do that.I started jacking him off while he still was cumming.It was all over my hand.He asked for a towel which i handed him.We smoked some more weed and about 30 mins. later i went home.Ever since then he hasnt answered any of my calls.I havent seen him since the last time since we both took off of work at the same time.I just hope that he doesnt think im gay for doing it and offering to do it.If i would have known he would feel weird about it i wouldnt have done it cause i would rather hang-out with him then not hang with him at all.I'll let u know what happends when i work with him again.This is all true and i tried to put as much details as possible.

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I think it's great that you tried something different. The part I don't care for is you hoping he doesn't think you're gay. So what if he does? He voluntarily involved himself also. Don't worry about what label someone wants to put on you.
He may be feeling a bit uneasy because he is questioning himself. It obviously turned him on enough to rub one out the first night. Give it time and don't push. He'll come around.
The important thing is, being that this was first experience, how do you feel about it?
 
Mat, I can understand mutual masturbation or giving a hand job--but if you're completely "straight" (though as Country says, forget labels), how is it that you apparently enjoy giving head...? Probably you're like so many guys--mainly "straight," but just a little "gay"...??? Wherever you fit on Kinsey"s scale, there's absolutely nothing for you to be concerned about...nothing at all. Sex is just sex, and there are many variations and gradations of it in the world. -- Besides, at 18 you're likely still just learning about yourself and your sexuality. Whatever you learn, it's entirely okay! [...except for the drugs. They're dangerous and not okay.]
 
karldergrosse;bt16113 said:
Mat, I can understand mutual masturbation or giving a hand job--but if you're completely "straight" (though as Country says, forget labels), how is it that you apparently enjoy giving head...? Probably you're like so many guys--mainly "straight," but just a little "gay"...??? Wherever you fit on Kinsey"s scale, there's absolutely nothing for you to be concerned about...nothing at all. Sex is just sex, and there are many variations and gradations of it in the world. -- Besides, at 18 you're likely still just learning about yourself and your sexuality. Whatever you learn, it's entirely okay! [...except for the drugs. They're dangerous and not okay.]
Its not like its the best thing in the world.I didnt mind doing it.I wouldnt say i like doing it,i just dont mind it.This will more than likely be the last time i will do it and im straight in my book.I dont find guys emotionally or physically attractive.I would never go with a guy.Its like saying if a gay guy had sex with a girl for the first time and only did it once would u consider that person as straight or bi just because of that one time thing.If the guy in his mind thought he was bi then he is bi.
 
mat1718;bt16116 said:
Its not like its the best thing in the world.I didnt mind doing it.I wouldnt say i like doing it,i just dont mind it.This will more than likely be the last time i will do it and im straight in my book.I dont find guys emotionally or physically attractive.I would never go with a guy.Its like saying if a gay guy had sex with a girl for the first time and only did it once would u consider that person as straight or bi just because of that one time thing.If the guy in his mind thought he was bi then he is bi.

Mat, I support you on this one, and gonna say it again, don't let the labels get at you. You know how you feel, and you sound very emotionally straight. The important thing here is, not to let this ruin a friendship. Good Luck
 
Country, I think you and Mat both misread/misunderstood me. I was agreeing with you when I said forget labels--they're not important. But Mat in his reply to me seems to bristle at the notion that any label other than 100% "straight" might possibly apply to him...seems to insist on that "pure" label. However, please take note that Mat himself in his Profile professes a 90-10% split..... So where does that leave us except with the Kinsey scale, which pretty well indicates that simplistic either/or labels can be very misleading...therefore best to ignore.
 
karldergrosse;bt16121 said:
Country, I think you and Mat both misread/misunderstood me. I was agreeing with you when I said forget labels--they're not important. But Mat in his reply to me seems to bristle at the notion that any label other than 100% "straight" might possibly apply to him...seems to insist on that "pure" label. However, please take note that Mat himself in his Profile professes a 90-10% split..... So where does that leave us except with the Kinsey scale, which pretty well indicates that simplistic either/or labels can be very misleading...therefore best to ignore.
to be honest i really didnt mean to put 90-10%.I didnt even notice that until u said something.If i thought i was a bit gay why would i feel so weird and worry on what my friend thinks of me?
 
Mat1718, What you don't want to happen is for both your actions to ruin your friendship. You also work together, and you want that to continue also. I would just be careful, and let him approach you from now on. He may be coming out, and your helping him by giving him fantastic blow jobs. To be cautious, let him initiate things from now on. Be well, Bruce
 

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