I'm Angry

I'm angry at me for not heeding the warning signs.
I'm angry at you for lying.
I'm angry at God for sending you into my life,
and I'm angry at myself for believing that I deserved to love again.

I'm just too old for this crap.
Relationships are really not worth the effort I always put into them.
I am locking my heart up again, this time for good.

Some say, "Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all."
This is bullshit. This is always said by people in love, people who have never had their heart ripped out by a spikey glove then stomped upon by King Kong in cleats.

I know my heart will heal in time; but I am not doing this again.
I just don't have the strength.

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NJQT, I'm sorry he broke your heart, but trust me when I tell you; locking away your heart after a bad falling out won't solve anything. You have to get back up, search again, and be more careful in your choices.
:kiss::hug:
 
Awww, Honey. You're breaking my heart. I hope you'll feel better soon. And I hope love sneaks up and surprises you. Of course you deserve love!
 
nj, I know know all too well what you are feeling. There isn't much that feels worse. Allow yourself to feel what you need to feel and eventually the misery will abate.
 
nJ,

This is good. You are working through it. Say whatever helps you through it. God didnt send him your way. He sent himself .Know that you are loved and that whatever happens,you have folks who love you.
 
we have ALL been there. it fucking sucks. it REALLY sucks.

it's not even the pain...it's just literally exhausting. you feel like every single thing about the situation is utterly draining, and completely sucks you dry of any energy you have left.

just breathe, honey. just take a really big deep breath.
 
christinab;bt19782 said:
we have ALL been there. it fucking sucks. it REALLY sucks.

it's not even the pain...it's just literally exhausting. you feel like every single thing about the situation is utterly draining, and completely sucks you dry of any energy you have left.

just breathe, honey. just take a really big deep breath.

I feel better than that sounds. :smile: :cool: I actually wrote that about 3 months ago. He became parasuicidal the day after my hysteroscopic myomectomy. I had no idea that was normal for him.
 

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