Like I wrote in my previous blog post, I'm giving up on relationships. Now, at the time I wasn't sure how that would affect my sex life. I had thought that maybe I would just buy prostitutes, but now I've decided to just give up on sex.
The reason for this is that I just can't get over the size of my dick. It's small and I hate it. I just hate my cock. I hate touching it. I hate looking at it. Hell, I even hate to feel my erections, because they feel small.
So, the biggest reason for my new life of celibacy is that I just feel so much shame about my cock and don't want anyone to see it. Another thing is that I feel that it disrespects a woman to fuck her with a cock like mine. I feel like I would be lowering or diminishing them in some way. I almost feel like it hurts them, not physically but mentally or spiritually. It's very hard to explain, but I've reached the point now where I can't fantasize about myself having sex. It's just too awkward and embarrassing even in my dreams..
The reason for this is that I just can't get over the size of my dick. It's small and I hate it. I just hate my cock. I hate touching it. I hate looking at it. Hell, I even hate to feel my erections, because they feel small.
So, the biggest reason for my new life of celibacy is that I just feel so much shame about my cock and don't want anyone to see it. Another thing is that I feel that it disrespects a woman to fuck her with a cock like mine. I feel like I would be lowering or diminishing them in some way. I almost feel like it hurts them, not physically but mentally or spiritually. It's very hard to explain, but I've reached the point now where I can't fantasize about myself having sex. It's just too awkward and embarrassing even in my dreams..