That's what I am..
He has always admitted and acknowledged the fact that my body isn't his ideal. Isn't the sexiest in his eyes.
It hurts. Maybe it's shallow, actually... It definitely is. Looks mean nothing long term. But social conditioning has impacted me in ways I fucking hate.
I want him to look at me and see his ideal body. It's never been the case. Never will be. He has told me more than once that my body would be more attractive to his eye if X,Y, Z was different.
It has always and always will impact how I see myself. It shouldn't, but it fucking does.
I don't like looking at me.
He has always admitted and acknowledged the fact that my body isn't his ideal. Isn't the sexiest in his eyes.
It hurts. Maybe it's shallow, actually... It definitely is. Looks mean nothing long term. But social conditioning has impacted me in ways I fucking hate.
I want him to look at me and see his ideal body. It's never been the case. Never will be. He has told me more than once that my body would be more attractive to his eye if X,Y, Z was different.
It has always and always will impact how I see myself. It shouldn't, but it fucking does.
I don't like looking at me.