You deserve an update. So here it is: there is no update.
The reason is simple: I'd like to tell you about my insecurities. I know I can seem like a particularly easy and sunny person here, but like all normal people, I have moments of sadness. And now that there is a new guy in my orbit, as I told you, it is normal that all the previously insecurities now come out.
I often have to find the courage to talk about it even if it is an evident thing being a physical thing: my weight. Now, I know that you judge the photos that are in my profile and you don't see any problems, but those photos are chosen on purpose so as not to let you see and know the reality
In reality, unfortunately, I gain weight easily, and after I had reached a physical form that I have always wanted, I have lost almost everything thanks to the bad period of the last year: physical activity stopped, breaking up a long relationship, various stresses.
In short, I returned to swing with my weight, to take it back, to have a physical shape that I don't like, it doesn't satisfy me, it doesn't make me feel 100% well. All things I can remedy and know how to do, of course, but in the short term it's another source of no small stress, insecurity and fear, honestly. It's not nice to say "today I would like to see that boy or do this thing, I'll take this dress ... oh no, I don't fit the size anymore".
I hope it doesn't sound stupid because it isn't at all. There are many problems, of course, but the first order of ideas is to go back to being at peace with yourself. This summer it was not like that, the experiences had been good, they distracted me but did not improve the situation.
So, I hope to give better updates soon.
The reason is simple: I'd like to tell you about my insecurities. I know I can seem like a particularly easy and sunny person here, but like all normal people, I have moments of sadness. And now that there is a new guy in my orbit, as I told you, it is normal that all the previously insecurities now come out.
I often have to find the courage to talk about it even if it is an evident thing being a physical thing: my weight. Now, I know that you judge the photos that are in my profile and you don't see any problems, but those photos are chosen on purpose so as not to let you see and know the reality
In short, I returned to swing with my weight, to take it back, to have a physical shape that I don't like, it doesn't satisfy me, it doesn't make me feel 100% well. All things I can remedy and know how to do, of course, but in the short term it's another source of no small stress, insecurity and fear, honestly. It's not nice to say "today I would like to see that boy or do this thing, I'll take this dress ... oh no, I don't fit the size anymore".
I hope it doesn't sound stupid because it isn't at all. There are many problems, of course, but the first order of ideas is to go back to being at peace with yourself. This summer it was not like that, the experiences had been good, they distracted me but did not improve the situation.
So, I hope to give better updates soon.