"Why don't you start a blog and write about yourself?"
I was dining with a group of friends a couple of years ago, and one of them asked me while we were talking about how to document our lives. I never thought myself as a good writer and brushed off the idea at that time. However, the truth was that I actually had been thinking about it for a while. Well, writing about my private life... or my hidden life, to be more exact.
I don't know why I was contemplating the idea, though. I have been struggling with my sexuality throughout my life -- outside, I'm a seemingly wholesome straight married guy with a great family. But inside, I'm a tormented soul with unceasing homosexual desire. Far too common a story, right? Then, what could I possibly get by anonymously writing about my sexual life? That won't resolve my issues. So, why should I do that?
I didn't have the answers back then, and the idea was buried up until recently, until some life-shattering event approached me. That event got me thinking. And for some unknown reason, the idea of blogging my sexual awakenings rekindled. Even though I still don't have the answers to my earlier questions, this time I decided to give it a go.
I don't know anyone will ever read my stories. Given that English is not my first language, I don't know how fully and thoroughly I can describe nuanced emotions and situations that I experienced here. But I'll just try and see where it goes.
I was dining with a group of friends a couple of years ago, and one of them asked me while we were talking about how to document our lives. I never thought myself as a good writer and brushed off the idea at that time. However, the truth was that I actually had been thinking about it for a while. Well, writing about my private life... or my hidden life, to be more exact.
I don't know why I was contemplating the idea, though. I have been struggling with my sexuality throughout my life -- outside, I'm a seemingly wholesome straight married guy with a great family. But inside, I'm a tormented soul with unceasing homosexual desire. Far too common a story, right? Then, what could I possibly get by anonymously writing about my sexual life? That won't resolve my issues. So, why should I do that?
I didn't have the answers back then, and the idea was buried up until recently, until some life-shattering event approached me. That event got me thinking. And for some unknown reason, the idea of blogging my sexual awakenings rekindled. Even though I still don't have the answers to my earlier questions, this time I decided to give it a go.
I don't know anyone will ever read my stories. Given that English is not my first language, I don't know how fully and thoroughly I can describe nuanced emotions and situations that I experienced here. But I'll just try and see where it goes.