It's been a rough month

I lost my job this month. I was unemployed for about two weeks, before my company was able to find another placement for me. But those were a rough two weeks. I seriously contemplated suicide and had a bit of breakdown.

I'm doing better now, but these last few weeks were very tough. I think the one thing that really saved me was the fact that it took so long for me to get fired. I first heard that I might be fired a week before I was actually let go. This allowed me to get all of the initial bad feelings, and liquor, out of the way and kind of prepare myself emotionally and mentally for the inevitable.

Mind you my mental preparations weren't that great, I was still in a state of shock and sadness once I was actually fired, but I think those preparations did a lot save my life.

I got so drunk and so sad after only hearing that I was in danger of losing lose my job, that I know I would have killed myself if I had been fired immediately.

Anyway, I have a new position and will be moving to a new area soon. The city that I'm moving to is much better suited towards my tastes and lifestyle, so I guess in a way things turned out pretty well for me.

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The steps you've taken, many men and women took before you.
Killing yourself puts a double strain on your family. 1 for killing yourself and 2 the why he done it guilt. I think that's a bit too much for anyone to put their family through!


I wish you the best on your new job!
There's a song called *We fall down* by Donnie McClurkins
Sample and download, it's only for encouragement!
 
Two weeks? :confused: You went off the deep end and considered suicide after only 2 weeks of being unemployed!?! :yikes: Yet you knew your company was going to place you in another division/city :261:

I'm sorry, if I don't sound more sympathetic, but I have been living with depression for over a decade and I have never once considered suicide.

IMO When a woman loses her job she loses her income. When a man loses his job, he loses his identity. I think this is why there have been so many family murder/suicides in the USA in the last 2 years.
 
njgt466

Actually, I didn't know that my company was going to find another placement for me. Initially they said that they weren't going to be able to find anything for me and that I needed to look within other companies. This current placement was almost a miracle.

You are right about that quote, though. What really hurt me when I lost my job was the sense of failure and shame. When I lost my job, I felt lower than dirt and that I had failed not just myself but my family, friends, my country, my race even my sex. That was the amount of shame that I felt.
 
wallyj84;bt19222 said:
njgt466

Actually, I didn't know that my company was going to find another placement for me. Initially they said that they weren't going to be able to find anything for me and that I needed to look within other companies. This current placement was almost a miracle.

You are right about that quote, though. What really hurt me when I lost my job was the sense of failure and shame. When I lost my job, I felt lower than dirt and that I had failed not just myself but my family, friends, my country, my race even my sex. That was the amount of shame that I felt.

I'm sorry you felt that way but I just don't get why that is.:confused: Most people don't become suicidal that quickly after losing there job. :no: They spend their savings, cash in their 401K, move in with a relative, sell off their valuables, maybe live in a shelter and THEN they think "I need to end it." You totally jumped the gun dude. Hell you didn't even think about the fact you could get unemployment. You didn't give them time to process the paperwork. God forbid you ever get laid off or fired. You need to step back from the edge and realize you can survive this and that there are other jobs available.
 
Hey Wally -
I am very relieved that you were able to find suitable employment so quickly and believe you will jump right into the new position, hit the ground running and do very well.
I am happy for how fortunate you are. I hope the move goes well and that your new work environment will be a good one. Best of luck to you! Hang in there, keep your chin up and keep us posted, okay?
 
njgt466

My big fear was losing my Visa and being deported. Right now I can only stay here because of my Visa and I have that due to company sponsorship.

In terms of finding other jobs, that would have been very difficult because I have a specialized Visa that only allows me to work one kind of job.

Anyway, I'll talk more about it later. I did have other concerns but I have to get to work now.
 
I have to agree that it was a bit of an overreaction to only being out of work 2 weeks. And being deported? Yeah, this is probably the best place in the world to live as far as freedoms go, but is your country so bad that you would rather be dead here than alive there??
 

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