Valentine's Day is my least favorite Halmark Holiday of all time.
I hate the commercialism of it, and each year I've been hurt, and I hate trying to make efforts and getting hurt, so I didn't this year. I made no effort, beyond the fact that I had absolutely no time to do anything or to catch up with stuff, and I feel genuinely awful.
My wonderful, sweet boyfriend made me this gorgeous scrapbook gift with a story in it of our relatioship. He did this because he knew how much I hated the holiday, and he wanted me to have a sweet Valentine's day this year. He tried so hard to make it perfect and I fucked it up because I'm a dick.
I didn't do anything for him. I bought him dinner, that's it. How unromantic is that? And not even nice dinner, it was cheap crap dinner because it was all I could afford, and then, I promised we would go out and do something, and I forgot so we never did. By the time we finally did go out, everything was closed, and I took a street that was quarantined off on the other side for some reason, litterally there were hazmat guys along the street, so I couldn't turn around and we got lost for half an hour trying to get back to my apartment.
Because we didn't go out, my boyfriend got upset with me and we ended up just fighting for two hours which made him cry because he wanted it to be so special.
I genuinely just feel awful today and I wish I could make it up, but I don't know how because yesterday is already over and I fucked up my chance.
I hate the commercialism of it, and each year I've been hurt, and I hate trying to make efforts and getting hurt, so I didn't this year. I made no effort, beyond the fact that I had absolutely no time to do anything or to catch up with stuff, and I feel genuinely awful.
My wonderful, sweet boyfriend made me this gorgeous scrapbook gift with a story in it of our relatioship. He did this because he knew how much I hated the holiday, and he wanted me to have a sweet Valentine's day this year. He tried so hard to make it perfect and I fucked it up because I'm a dick.
I didn't do anything for him. I bought him dinner, that's it. How unromantic is that? And not even nice dinner, it was cheap crap dinner because it was all I could afford, and then, I promised we would go out and do something, and I forgot so we never did. By the time we finally did go out, everything was closed, and I took a street that was quarantined off on the other side for some reason, litterally there were hazmat guys along the street, so I couldn't turn around and we got lost for half an hour trying to get back to my apartment.
Because we didn't go out, my boyfriend got upset with me and we ended up just fighting for two hours which made him cry because he wanted it to be so special.
I genuinely just feel awful today and I wish I could make it up, but I don't know how because yesterday is already over and I fucked up my chance.