It really has been awhile, mostly Ive been so busy. But I find now a part of me feels kinda 'backed up'..like I haven't 'talked' in awhile and had some feedback, and thats true and its only myself I have to blame.
So perhaps I can start slow and try to add something more frequently, so I at least am once again thinking and voicing my thoughts instead of just concentrating on my job.
I find I've missed some of your blog responses, post responses, etc... to me recently- not on purpose! and some awfully nice comments. PLEASE if you ever feel I've not even seen your response, PM me and tell me to get my head outta my ass. I appreciate folks reading ANY of my meanderings, more so even their responses. I like to consider all opinions when I am struggling, and even when I'm not.
marriage plans continue, quickie court thing on Feb 29th. (teehee, love the date)
Can't say I'm not scared, I truly am. More so cos I think I am not good enough for him, just part of a low self esteem thing I been going through.
I have a SLIGHT gambling 'addiction'. I do like the damned one armed bandits. Paul is an angel always about it....he accepts me as I am even while agreeing to do anything I want to support me through anything. But, I have a job and pay the bills, so the gambling isn't taking that away. But lately it seems I find any little flaw in myself and make it a huge obstacle somehow. Normal????
anyways, Cigar B- kick my ass when I dont reply to you! and yes, tell me all you want bout eddy baby- I have a few stories for you, too....:biggrin1:
nother pic. I just love him. :smile: (sappy sappy sappy) View attachment 22
So perhaps I can start slow and try to add something more frequently, so I at least am once again thinking and voicing my thoughts instead of just concentrating on my job.
I find I've missed some of your blog responses, post responses, etc... to me recently- not on purpose! and some awfully nice comments. PLEASE if you ever feel I've not even seen your response, PM me and tell me to get my head outta my ass. I appreciate folks reading ANY of my meanderings, more so even their responses. I like to consider all opinions when I am struggling, and even when I'm not.
marriage plans continue, quickie court thing on Feb 29th. (teehee, love the date)
Can't say I'm not scared, I truly am. More so cos I think I am not good enough for him, just part of a low self esteem thing I been going through.
I have a SLIGHT gambling 'addiction'. I do like the damned one armed bandits. Paul is an angel always about it....he accepts me as I am even while agreeing to do anything I want to support me through anything. But, I have a job and pay the bills, so the gambling isn't taking that away. But lately it seems I find any little flaw in myself and make it a huge obstacle somehow. Normal????
anyways, Cigar B- kick my ass when I dont reply to you! and yes, tell me all you want bout eddy baby- I have a few stories for you, too....:biggrin1:
nother pic. I just love him. :smile: (sappy sappy sappy) View attachment 22