Long time, no blog.

It really has been awhile, mostly Ive been so busy. But I find now a part of me feels kinda 'backed up'..like I haven't 'talked' in awhile and had some feedback, and thats true and its only myself I have to blame.
So perhaps I can start slow and try to add something more frequently, so I at least am once again thinking and voicing my thoughts instead of just concentrating on my job.
I find I've missed some of your blog responses, post responses, etc... to me recently- not on purpose! and some awfully nice comments. PLEASE if you ever feel I've not even seen your response, PM me and tell me to get my head outta my ass. I appreciate folks reading ANY of my meanderings, more so even their responses. I like to consider all opinions when I am struggling, and even when I'm not.

marriage plans continue, quickie court thing on Feb 29th. (teehee, love the date)
Can't say I'm not scared, I truly am. More so cos I think I am not good enough for him, just part of a low self esteem thing I been going through.

I have a SLIGHT gambling 'addiction'. I do like the damned one armed bandits. Paul is an angel always about it....he accepts me as I am even while agreeing to do anything I want to support me through anything. But, I have a job and pay the bills, so the gambling isn't taking that away. But lately it seems I find any little flaw in myself and make it a huge obstacle somehow. Normal????

anyways, Cigar B- kick my ass when I dont reply to you! and yes, tell me all you want bout eddy baby- I have a few stories for you, too....:biggrin1:

nother pic. I just love him. :smile: (sappy sappy sappy)
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I'll be the first to say you deserve to be as happy as you are. Do not, under any circumstances, allow others to convince you otherwise. You're a beautiful woman inside and out. Why shouldn't you be happy?

Congratulations on your upcoming nuptials. I wish you and your soon-to-be-hubby all the best. ::smile::
 
Sassy:-

Congrats on your upcoming wedding. Wishing you a beautiful day and here's to you and Paul sharing a lifetime of happiness and companionship.

It's uncanny: You've mentioned that you think that you're not good enough for Paul and Mrs. biguy and I had a similar discussion an hour ago after she read my blog entries. She mentioned that she can't understand why I love her so much when she doesn't feel worthy of it. I am going to tell you what I told her:

By questioning your worthiness of the love, you will not only be unable to accept it but also not be fully aware of the depth of it.

Don't allow yourself to lose out on the gift - it would be tragic!
 
SassySpy, You are way to sweet and good a person to become a bridezilla; but planning a wedding is a big deal and definetely time consuming. If you don't check in here as regularly I definetely understand.

I have battled low self-esteem for years I'm not quite sure when I realized that I wasn't less than anybody but it was quite the shocker. :tongue: I waffle on that occassionally but for the most part I am good.
 
I love you Sassy and you are wonderful. Don't you dare think you deserve anything less than the best. You are a sweetheart and I wish you all the happiness you so rightly deserve.
 
I keep forgetting to check out the blog section!
It's good to hear everything's still going well for you.I know you've got a busy life right now and you haven't forgotten your LPSG friends.
All the best to you and Paul! :cool:
 

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