As I anticipate spending the next ten hours playing with my cock before shooting-off, I wonder what stimulates me to pursue an extended masturbation session (edging session). I'm enjoying the pleasant sensations created as I gently stroke momentarily to maintain my cock's plumpness, but I refrain from becoming completely rigid. My narcissisms attract me towards admiring its plump appearance which reminds me of exhibitionism goals at naked venues.
I suspect the past year of limited opportunities to be naked in public settings has forced me to become the only audience for my exhibitionism. My wife doesn't react anymore

. I suppose watching the same nudist for 44 years could become humdrum, but I wish she would react whenever my cock is displaying more erotically.