How have I arrived at this condition? Has my daily habit controlled my personal destiny? Did societal manifestations create a monstrous dysfunctional personality? Do I masturbate in order to abdicate personal responsibilities to the chaos that exists in this world? Does my spiritual condition depend upon the rewards of orgasmic release?
I've attempted to explore this topic previously. Many experiences throughout my life have affected my masturbation frequency, but the necessity to ejaculate daily has remained constant throughout my past 55 years. As I struggle with the reality of adjusting to the new normality of dealing with our environment, I wonder whether my masturbation habit became a coping mechanism for dealing with social injustice

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I'm about to begin a twelve hour edging session with "controlled" exhibitionistic behavior

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