mr big

So i've been perusing the galleries for some time now and have fantasized throughout my life (after puberty) to take a big dick. I'm talking painfully big. I finally found one on a relatively attractive guy. The few times we've been together have turned me on so much i don't feel the pain until the deed has been done. Unfortunately for me it's such a turn on that i don't last long. His cock is its widest at the base so when his balls hit my ass i know i'm stretched to a near 7 inch circumference and my mind and cock explode in ecstasy. We get to have another go at it tomorrow and the anticipation of being totally annihilated by his rock hard monster cock has my head spinning and my cock dripping. The only problem is that when it's over, it's over. I'm not much fond of this character when he's not abusing my ass with his absurdly thick and gorgeous horse cock. I'm so satisfied when it's over that i don't even fantasize for weeks after the ordeal. He usually wants to go a second time but i just can't bring myself to do it when im reeling from the pain of the first fuck no matter how appealing his johnson is. I'm curious if it's unhealhy to like someone for their cock alone. I love taking it rouhly once a month but he keeps pushing for more and has skirted the subject of dating. Wondering if anyone has any advice for keeping the arrangement the way it is without having to hurt his feelings and possibly losing the best sex with the biggest cock in my life.

I asked him if he'd be interested in making a short fuck film with me. Tomorrow may be the night!