I don't really know many people on this site, but I'm hoping that will change. Maybe keeping a blog here will get more people willing to be friends?
I guess, for my first entry, I'm going to write a little bit about one of my biggest fears....taking an IQ test.
I always went to schools for the gifted my entire life. Then, I went to some pretty elite colleges. Don't get me wrong, I wasn't a hard worker. I was the classic underachiever. But I think I have some natural ability.
Ironically, I am being both intrigued by and repelled at the idea of taking a legitimate IQ test online.
I know the average IQ is only 100. I'm pretty sure I'd be above that. But I want to be at least 2 standard deviations (95th percentile) above the average.
I mean, if I took the IQ test, and scored a 115, or so, it would wreck my confidence. There are countries like Japan or Germany where the average IQ is 108....I would be just a little better than average. It would kill my self-esteem because so much of my confidence rests on the fact that I perceive myself as intelligent.
Sigh. I'm always afraid of taking a chance, in anything, because I'm content in the uncertainty. My friend D. said that the way I live is like living in a grave. I really appreciated that tough love and honesty from him. I hate being sugarcoated when I'm in the wrong....but this lesson just doesn't seem to get internalized no matter how often I hear it.
I guess, for my first entry, I'm going to write a little bit about one of my biggest fears....taking an IQ test.
I always went to schools for the gifted my entire life. Then, I went to some pretty elite colleges. Don't get me wrong, I wasn't a hard worker. I was the classic underachiever. But I think I have some natural ability.
Ironically, I am being both intrigued by and repelled at the idea of taking a legitimate IQ test online.
I know the average IQ is only 100. I'm pretty sure I'd be above that. But I want to be at least 2 standard deviations (95th percentile) above the average.
I mean, if I took the IQ test, and scored a 115, or so, it would wreck my confidence. There are countries like Japan or Germany where the average IQ is 108....I would be just a little better than average. It would kill my self-esteem because so much of my confidence rests on the fact that I perceive myself as intelligent.
Sigh. I'm always afraid of taking a chance, in anything, because I'm content in the uncertainty. My friend D. said that the way I live is like living in a grave. I really appreciated that tough love and honesty from him. I hate being sugarcoated when I'm in the wrong....but this lesson just doesn't seem to get internalized no matter how often I hear it.