My Clusterfucked Life

hey bud! best of luck man...sounds like you have a lot of crazy sh*t going on right now. First off - don't pay any mind to your dad and stepmom! It's your life and your happiness and you don't need anyone driving that ship but you. Second, you've got a tricky situation with the current guy and the ex. If you really don't feel anything for him, you've got to tell him in the nicest possible way - it's just the truth and he deserves to hear it from you no matter how hard it will be. You can both move on from that. Regarding the current guy...he obviously doesn't want to deal with real feelings yet since the relationship is obviously in the "let's fuck NOW!" stage - give it time...he might be willing to face deeper issues when the infatuation phase wears off. Seems like the real heart of the problem might be where you live? I'm from a small town too and everyone knows everyone elses business and it SUCKS! Is moving away and starting fresh an option? Just some thoughts and best wishes man! PEACE!

sounds a pretty typical life for a 20 year old

"Moving on my dad and stepmom are trying to push me and my ex gf together cause they hate me being bi and told me to never to bring a guy up there. Then my mom is on drugs and treats me like shit half the time. Then i got my ex bf that tells me he head over hell for me and i dont feel anything for him. Well im going a little out of my mind cause of all my problems but i just had to get all this of my chest and this seems like the only place i can"
Well, sometimes you will have to let your parents date your ex-girlfriend since they like her so much.
Well, you should go out in the world and find out where you belong. You can never make your parents like the ones you love. You may have to leave your parents and become your own person that you need to be.

Good luck

Hang in there. Hope it get's better for you!