Oftentimes, I question my perception. My illusionary perceptions entangle my knowledge as I imagine my cock is larger than reality. Meditating on my subject occasionally leads me to accepting facts, Size is irrelevant.
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I recall a time when my cock size was irrelevant. My mother taught me to retract my foreskin while urinating. She instructed me to clean thoroughly on a daily basis. She inspected as closely as she inspected my handwashing prior to meals.
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Somehow my cock size developed into an obsession. As I review my subject's development, I recall observing adult cocks and assuming they were larger, because they were grown up. My childhood friends' cocks were different than mine due their circumcisions. I would roll my foreskin back to uncover my glans in order to appear similar to my friends' cocks, unaware that their cute button knobs stood straight out due to circumcision. I was totally unaware of any size differences . I figured any size difference was proportionate to our growth and height. I was ten years old before a friend exclaimed another friend's cock was really large. Through my naivete, I'm concluding that he had observed our friend with an erection. I knew my cock was longer than his, so I assumed my cock was large.
I equated my erections with the necessity to take a piss. Instructions were received from my mother. My cock was definitely larger then
. I began to notice enjoyable sensations while erect, but not experience the shocking ejaculation experience until a couple years later. I never received any formal sexual education, and grew up without a father. Friends educated me about the gross definition of copulation. We weren't permitted to swear, so it took a few years to learn fucking equated with intercourse
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I never quite understood the reason my sister and her friends insisted on me playing with them. While home alone, my mother insisted that I had to placate my sister's desires, since I was the elder-in-charge. My mother did not want to return home from work, and hear my sister whining about my unwillingness to play with the girls. Childhood games with girls were ridiculous. Play house, play doctor visits with nurses, play wrestling, play cowboy and Indians, and incorporating dolls into various games kept me from playing outside with my male friends. I never associated the tickling games that my sister and her friends desired with anything sexual. My mother had discovered peculiarly sensitive ticklish areas on my inner thighs, taught my sister that I lost more control closer to my crotch, so her friends incorporated tickling while attempting to conquer me during their gang wrestling. Years later while wrestling, some of her friends grabbed my cock while play wrestling
.
To summarize, my only concept of cock size variation equated with having an erection. Skinny guys' had skinny cocks. Chubby guys' had chubby cocks. Normal guys' cocks glans were exposed, and we all had the same length prior to becoming erect. Erections indicated a necessity for pissing, so were rarely observed during my youth. It took awhile before I connected sexual insinuations about cock sizes while in junior high school with my cock size perceptions. View media item 1352410View media item 1246573View media item 1240079View media item 1166708View media item 1050618View media item 384846View media item 411727
Will have to continue my investigation in - part 2
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I recall a time when my cock size was irrelevant. My mother taught me to retract my foreskin while urinating. She instructed me to clean thoroughly on a daily basis. She inspected as closely as she inspected my handwashing prior to meals.
View media item 1352437View media item 1352435View media item 1352436
Somehow my cock size developed into an obsession. As I review my subject's development, I recall observing adult cocks and assuming they were larger, because they were grown up. My childhood friends' cocks were different than mine due their circumcisions. I would roll my foreskin back to uncover my glans in order to appear similar to my friends' cocks, unaware that their cute button knobs stood straight out due to circumcision. I was totally unaware of any size differences . I figured any size difference was proportionate to our growth and height. I was ten years old before a friend exclaimed another friend's cock was really large. Through my naivete, I'm concluding that he had observed our friend with an erection. I knew my cock was longer than his, so I assumed my cock was large.
I equated my erections with the necessity to take a piss. Instructions were received from my mother. My cock was definitely larger then
I never quite understood the reason my sister and her friends insisted on me playing with them. While home alone, my mother insisted that I had to placate my sister's desires, since I was the elder-in-charge. My mother did not want to return home from work, and hear my sister whining about my unwillingness to play with the girls. Childhood games with girls were ridiculous. Play house, play doctor visits with nurses, play wrestling, play cowboy and Indians, and incorporating dolls into various games kept me from playing outside with my male friends. I never associated the tickling games that my sister and her friends desired with anything sexual. My mother had discovered peculiarly sensitive ticklish areas on my inner thighs, taught my sister that I lost more control closer to my crotch, so her friends incorporated tickling while attempting to conquer me during their gang wrestling. Years later while wrestling, some of her friends grabbed my cock while play wrestling
To summarize, my only concept of cock size variation equated with having an erection. Skinny guys' had skinny cocks. Chubby guys' had chubby cocks. Normal guys' cocks glans were exposed, and we all had the same length prior to becoming erect. Erections indicated a necessity for pissing, so were rarely observed during my youth. It took awhile before I connected sexual insinuations about cock sizes while in junior high school with my cock size perceptions. View media item 1352410View media item 1246573View media item 1240079View media item 1166708View media item 1050618View media item 384846View media item 411727
Will have to continue my investigation in - part 2