Making lemonade out of my dilemma. Pandemic imposed isolationism is exposing my depression over losing opportunities for my voyeurism and exhibitionism. Also, it has led to greater self reflection. Precautionary distancing while in public areas makes me paranoid as I observe others "social distancing". I've become more aware of people observing me, and their potential fears. Psychoanalysis probably should be left to the professionals, but I recall the "lessons of journalism", and realize my blogging will help me get through this agony.
I'm beginning to realize the physical limitations of my age. I remain dumbfounded by my 70 year old mind thinking as if I'm a horny teenager.
Suffice it to indicate those thoughts enter into my observances of my neighbors as I attempt to be responsible. As I observe their paranoia, I realize many more may be observing me than I am unaware of(?). I'm cautiously mindful that any activity is being observed. It makes me uncomfortable, and I begin to realize the discomfort I'm imposing upon them. I've begun to internalize those thoughts with my exhibitionism justifications.
Realistically, my past practices need to respond to an evolving new reality

. All those emoji's probably express twenty more pages of composition. I may never again realize my innocent, intentional desires. View media item 1444742View media item 1048614View media item 1048616View media item 1048615
Considering that loss, my self reflection into understanding my masturbation habit evolving into further exhibitionism desires ... ... View media item 1050620View media item 1050617[photo=medium]View media item 1235734View media item 1235734View media item 1235734View media item 1235734View media item 1235734 ... ... requires further reflection as my computer begins to go berserk
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I'm beginning to realize the physical limitations of my age. I remain dumbfounded by my 70 year old mind thinking as if I'm a horny teenager.
Realistically, my past practices need to respond to an evolving new reality
Considering that loss, my self reflection into understanding my masturbation habit evolving into further exhibitionism desires ... ... View media item 1050620View media item 1050617[photo=medium]View media item 1235734View media item 1235734View media item 1235734View media item 1235734View media item 1235734 ... ... requires further reflection as my computer begins to go berserk