He would talk deeply and deep stuff to me on the phone like Jill Scott's song Love Rain says.He looked just like this guy except he was College boi in his late 20s. I can dream hard and wish more for a cute brotha to spend time with me or I can let alot of people into downlow and swinger local groups take my life over, because they dont understand I didnt have any siblings, I didnt have a father. I'm actually looking for that love I missed in a dominating partner I think. I'm just lost in love I guess since I met N.D. (No names mentioned but hes a young black doctor now). But anyways, I love this type of Guy. Brownskin, Military, Clean Cut, Fit. Just the anthem of all my songs, music and dreams since I became a Man anyways. So I pray for freedom from this crush And/or I will continue accept it. And my other fantasy of Mixed Boiz until God takes me home I guess.