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So last month, some friends and me went to St. Ignance Michigan to visit. You know just to get the hell out of Illinois. It was a great trip, had a great time. But while there, I noticed all the happy families. And I began thinking about myself. I started thinking how great it would be to bring my kids up here and go on vacation. It got me thinking about how it’s probably time I got my shit together and maybe its time I start thinking about settling down and having a family. Its been on my mind for a while but on the other hand, I have just begun dealing with the personal issue of coming out to my friends and family and part of me feels I need to deal with that before trying to settle down.
In addition to that, last week. One of the friends on the trip with me (a female friend), decided to tell me how serious she’s into me. She told me this along time ago, but after the trip her feeling got more intense. Maybe we shouldn’t have shared a room. Anyway, she told me that her feelings for me have gotten so bad, that it’s hard for her to be around me for long periods of time. In fact the whole car ride home was kind of awkward. When I dropped her off at home, she cried on her mothers shoulder for like 20 mins.
Many are probably thinking, “why don’t just go out with her?” Good questions. She is looking for a husband and I was looking for a wife. Now that I am ready, I’m battling this whole coming out thing (I did tell her also. She once told me she would never date a bisexual man so, I hope that made it easier for her). She and I wouldn’t work out at all. We are two different on key points including children. I want them, she doesn’t, I have my faith belief and she has hers that are way different. The things I want out of life she doesn’t. We are just two separate.
I’m not going to lie and say I haven’t thought about it because I have. And every time I think about it, it is clearer to me that it wouldn’t work. I’m glad that everything is going great career wise or else I would be losing my mind right now. Anyone with any thoughts, questions and/or concerns let me know. All advice is appreciated.

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