This past 12 months have been a roller coaster ride from hell. The best thing to happen was getting the new job last year. It was the best thing to happen to me in a long time. Great boss, HUGE pay raise, and great coworkers. The worst thing has been what has been going on with my boyfriend/now ex-boyfriend. That has been a shitshow.
This summer, it seems that some chapters from the past have decided to end and some new chapters have started. The ex-boyfriend is a major chapter that has concluded. For the past year, the relationship has been going down the drain. The ex has been dealing with some issues, but he doesn't want to take care of them. In fact, he refuses to admit there are any problems. And these aren't small, minor issues. We are talking about major issues that is ruining his entire life. When those issues started him lying to me, accusing me of things that didn't happen and then start physically attacking me. It was time for me to walk away. I try to stay away from drama, but when it happens, I just walk away. I left him to his own destruction a few times, but I always felt guilty. I would come back thinking I could talk him into getting help. But that never worked. He didn't have any problems. It would just piss him off more. But the final straw was when he slashed 2 of my car tires. He did it right in front of a coworker of mine. My coworker who knows him and asked him "What the fuck?" His eyes were glazed over, he had a sinister look on his face. I called the cops. Whether they found him or not, I am not sure. But I know he has been hiding and trying not to get caught. I also know he left the area only to end up back here. Karma will catch up to him. He's destroying his life and there is nothing I can do about it. And at this point, I don't care anymore. I'm just sorry we were together for 12 years. I would love to have had those back.
The good points of the summer (the new chapters). My job is going great. My boss is the best boss I have ever had. I was needing new tires (long before the slashing). The boss got me new tires. Part of his Safety Program he runs at work. 2 of those tires get slashed? No problem, he took care of that and replaced the tires. Gas prices go up? He has been handing out $50 gas cards. End up in the hospital for high blood pressure? (I'm sure the battles with the ex was a big part of that.) He still pays me even though I was out of sick leave. This has been the best boss ever. I couldn't ask for anything different.
Another good thing to happen, has happened/hasn't happened yet. I have met a guy online. To be honest, I have chatted with this guy off and on for the last 2 or 3 years (maybe more???). He is on another website and that is the only place I have seen him. The first time I saw his profile on there, I was amazed by how beautiful he was. Very handsome, great body, great dick, and you could tell he was halfway intelligent by the way his profile was written. I really liked this guy. But as much as I liked him, I was in a relationship (an open relationship at that) and didn't want to ruin anything with this guy. I do have a way of fucking things up sometimes. I wasn't sure what I was wanting. I did know that I didn't want to ruin my chances with this guy. We chatted a little bit online. We always said we were going to hookup, but we never did. I was about to give up on this guy. I admit that I rarely was on that particular website and our chances of meeting were not looking good.
Last week, I was horny (big surprise) and wanting to test the waters of what was out there. I was missing the friendship, companionship, the best friend to explore the world with. I was wanting something more than I had at the time. I saw him online and sent him a message. I just said I had a hotel room for the night and was wanting to know if he was interested. He responded "
I’m going to have to respectfully decline. I have plans tonight." Damn, I was hoping we could finally meet. I signed off the website and forgot about it. Five days later, I got a notification that I had a message. I signed in and saw it was from him. He asked, "
I really hope I didn’t miss out on meeting you. I would love to meet up and see if..." (he went on to tell me some things he wanted to do!) Feeling like it was the right time, I sent him my phone number. I told him he could call or text. And that has started a very flirtatious, sex filled and sweet set of text messages. I will admit, it has brought up a lot of feelings inside me. Feelings that have been lost for a long time.
We haven't met yet. We do talk a lot. He seems like a very genuine and sweet guy. And very perverted! Which matches up with me just fine. I'm not sure what I want. I am not sure if I am ready for much yet. He knows what I am going through. We are going to take it slow, start of as friends with benefits. See how we get along. But I will be honest, I am hoping for a lot with this guy.
Cross your fingers for me please.
This summer, it seems that some chapters from the past have decided to end and some new chapters have started. The ex-boyfriend is a major chapter that has concluded. For the past year, the relationship has been going down the drain. The ex has been dealing with some issues, but he doesn't want to take care of them. In fact, he refuses to admit there are any problems. And these aren't small, minor issues. We are talking about major issues that is ruining his entire life. When those issues started him lying to me, accusing me of things that didn't happen and then start physically attacking me. It was time for me to walk away. I try to stay away from drama, but when it happens, I just walk away. I left him to his own destruction a few times, but I always felt guilty. I would come back thinking I could talk him into getting help. But that never worked. He didn't have any problems. It would just piss him off more. But the final straw was when he slashed 2 of my car tires. He did it right in front of a coworker of mine. My coworker who knows him and asked him "What the fuck?" His eyes were glazed over, he had a sinister look on his face. I called the cops. Whether they found him or not, I am not sure. But I know he has been hiding and trying not to get caught. I also know he left the area only to end up back here. Karma will catch up to him. He's destroying his life and there is nothing I can do about it. And at this point, I don't care anymore. I'm just sorry we were together for 12 years. I would love to have had those back.
The good points of the summer (the new chapters). My job is going great. My boss is the best boss I have ever had. I was needing new tires (long before the slashing). The boss got me new tires. Part of his Safety Program he runs at work. 2 of those tires get slashed? No problem, he took care of that and replaced the tires. Gas prices go up? He has been handing out $50 gas cards. End up in the hospital for high blood pressure? (I'm sure the battles with the ex was a big part of that.) He still pays me even though I was out of sick leave. This has been the best boss ever. I couldn't ask for anything different.
Another good thing to happen, has happened/hasn't happened yet. I have met a guy online. To be honest, I have chatted with this guy off and on for the last 2 or 3 years (maybe more???). He is on another website and that is the only place I have seen him. The first time I saw his profile on there, I was amazed by how beautiful he was. Very handsome, great body, great dick, and you could tell he was halfway intelligent by the way his profile was written. I really liked this guy. But as much as I liked him, I was in a relationship (an open relationship at that) and didn't want to ruin anything with this guy. I do have a way of fucking things up sometimes. I wasn't sure what I was wanting. I did know that I didn't want to ruin my chances with this guy. We chatted a little bit online. We always said we were going to hookup, but we never did. I was about to give up on this guy. I admit that I rarely was on that particular website and our chances of meeting were not looking good.
Last week, I was horny (big surprise) and wanting to test the waters of what was out there. I was missing the friendship, companionship, the best friend to explore the world with. I was wanting something more than I had at the time. I saw him online and sent him a message. I just said I had a hotel room for the night and was wanting to know if he was interested. He responded "
I’m going to have to respectfully decline. I have plans tonight." Damn, I was hoping we could finally meet. I signed off the website and forgot about it. Five days later, I got a notification that I had a message. I signed in and saw it was from him. He asked, "
I really hope I didn’t miss out on meeting you. I would love to meet up and see if..." (he went on to tell me some things he wanted to do!) Feeling like it was the right time, I sent him my phone number. I told him he could call or text. And that has started a very flirtatious, sex filled and sweet set of text messages. I will admit, it has brought up a lot of feelings inside me. Feelings that have been lost for a long time.
We haven't met yet. We do talk a lot. He seems like a very genuine and sweet guy. And very perverted! Which matches up with me just fine. I'm not sure what I want. I am not sure if I am ready for much yet. He knows what I am going through. We are going to take it slow, start of as friends with benefits. See how we get along. But I will be honest, I am hoping for a lot with this guy.
Cross your fingers for me please.