Well we are not starting the new year off on a good start. My psychiatrist told me that i should start writing down the memories i had with my ex as the come up. I dont sleep at night cause i have bad flash backs and thats why she wants me to write them down so i get it out of my system. She keeps pushing for me to take some depression pills wich i am seriously considering taking. Last night i had a talk with my best friend about my ex and it turns out that hes been spending time with her behind my back. To me thats a total lack of respect to me and our friendship.
He updated me that shes seeing some one and he treats her like crap. How Would you feel? I started to feel better knowing she was getting treated like crap cause of what she did to me and i poured my heart out to her for 7 years. My best friend admitted of going after her when we split because she was hot abd good looking. Right there i lost my respect for him and now our friendship is on the line cause i dont know how long this hs been going on for.
She mad a choice now she has to live with it and i have moved on still suffering from what she did to me and i am in a new relashionship with a wounderful girl who understand whats going on and is behind me all the way. I am still trying to figure out why i am feeling like this. I never did get closure when we split and i never will and that somthing i will have to deal with as long as i live. I have come to terms the she is insecure about heself and will never be happy. The more i get this out there the better i feel till somthing else pops into my head but i had to write down what i was told last night cuase all i saw was red last night i was so pissed and from what i was told i have every right to.
Thanks for taking the time and reading this.
He updated me that shes seeing some one and he treats her like crap. How Would you feel? I started to feel better knowing she was getting treated like crap cause of what she did to me and i poured my heart out to her for 7 years. My best friend admitted of going after her when we split because she was hot abd good looking. Right there i lost my respect for him and now our friendship is on the line cause i dont know how long this hs been going on for.
She mad a choice now she has to live with it and i have moved on still suffering from what she did to me and i am in a new relashionship with a wounderful girl who understand whats going on and is behind me all the way. I am still trying to figure out why i am feeling like this. I never did get closure when we split and i never will and that somthing i will have to deal with as long as i live. I have come to terms the she is insecure about heself and will never be happy. The more i get this out there the better i feel till somthing else pops into my head but i had to write down what i was told last night cuase all i saw was red last night i was so pissed and from what i was told i have every right to.
Thanks for taking the time and reading this.