Ok, I like a guy.
It's really weird to admit it. You see, the experiences I had last August, which I talked about in the last blog entry, were strictly physical experiences, mainly decided to relax and try something. This time it's different. I like a guy, I say it out loud, and then a whole new chain of thoughts, pressures, insecurities, doubts is unleashed. And consequences.
After all, I think I'm still in love with my ex-boyfriend. In fact, I don't just think so, I know. We broke up not because of scenes, scandals or problems, but different life choices to face after so many years together: I wanted a path, he wanted another. For this reason, the feeling cannot easily disappear after so many years.
So knowing that I like another guy now is so weird. Ah right, do you want to know who he is? Easiest answer you can imagine: friend of friend. In my new flat shared with two other roomates, it is normal to meet other people, friends of my roommates. A few nights ago, for two consecutive evenings, a group of boys and girls had dinner with us, and among them a guy, my same age, caught my attention. Much of my attention. But for now, just my attention.
I update you if anything happens, but for now, it's just the head that bursts.
It's really weird to admit it. You see, the experiences I had last August, which I talked about in the last blog entry, were strictly physical experiences, mainly decided to relax and try something. This time it's different. I like a guy, I say it out loud, and then a whole new chain of thoughts, pressures, insecurities, doubts is unleashed. And consequences.
After all, I think I'm still in love with my ex-boyfriend. In fact, I don't just think so, I know. We broke up not because of scenes, scandals or problems, but different life choices to face after so many years together: I wanted a path, he wanted another. For this reason, the feeling cannot easily disappear after so many years.
So knowing that I like another guy now is so weird. Ah right, do you want to know who he is? Easiest answer you can imagine: friend of friend. In my new flat shared with two other roomates, it is normal to meet other people, friends of my roommates. A few nights ago, for two consecutive evenings, a group of boys and girls had dinner with us, and among them a guy, my same age, caught my attention. Much of my attention. But for now, just my attention.
I update you if anything happens, but for now, it's just the head that bursts.