Now I've discussed what I've seen, what I've learnt from that and the conclusions I have come to.
Hopefully that will give a certain amount of background and explanation for this discussion, which will be about what I desire.
More specifically, what I desire romantically, or perhaps in a more lust-oriented way. Probably a mix between the two.
Above all other things that I desire, I wish to be with a woman who wants me in her life. I don't want to be accepted or grudgingly given access, I want to be desired.
I wish to meet a woman who is confident, comfortable with her self and complete in herself. A person that is genuinely happy to see me, but who is also capable of dealing with her own stuff. As I discussed in my last post: a person who will brighten my days, and whose days I too will brighten. Yet not lift up from bad to good, but from good to better.
Somebody that I share interests with, yet who also has their own interests. Things that they prefer to do on their own. But of course, somebody that enjoys spending time with me, wants to spend time with me, and whom I enjoy spending time with, whom I want to spend time with.
Somebody that I can have long conversations with. A woman with an open and flexible mind, willing to accept new perspectives.
Are these unrealistic desires?
Am I describing the modern, independent woman?
I cannot deny that I also wish to feel warm, soft, smooth skin under my fingers. I yearn to feel a pubic bush tickle my fingertips. I want to see a shapely mouth smile warmly at me due to my presence, and what more, my actions. And I want to see clear, intelligent eyes echo that smile.
Are these selfish desires?
The next part will sound silly, I fear, but it is nonetheless true: I desire to pleasure this hypothetical woman that I have described.
It seems that orgasms are such an easy thing for men: just have a wank and it's done. My impression is that it is a lot more complicated and difficult for women to reach an orgasm.
From this there grew in me the conviction that the woman's pleasure comes first. I realize that the best sex is when both partners are enjoying themselves as much as possible, as this creates a feedback effect: one partner feels how excited the other one is, and become excited in turn. However, the world is not ideal and if I must choose between my pleasure and the woman's, her pleasure will always come first. Pun intended.
And so I desire to be the source of pleasure for this theoretical, hypothetical woman.
Am I wrong in my desires?
Am I reaching for the stars, destined to fall on my face?
All I know is that this is what I feel that I desire. I lack experience, but this is what my gut feeling tells me.
Hopefully that will give a certain amount of background and explanation for this discussion, which will be about what I desire.
More specifically, what I desire romantically, or perhaps in a more lust-oriented way. Probably a mix between the two.
Above all other things that I desire, I wish to be with a woman who wants me in her life. I don't want to be accepted or grudgingly given access, I want to be desired.
I wish to meet a woman who is confident, comfortable with her self and complete in herself. A person that is genuinely happy to see me, but who is also capable of dealing with her own stuff. As I discussed in my last post: a person who will brighten my days, and whose days I too will brighten. Yet not lift up from bad to good, but from good to better.
Somebody that I share interests with, yet who also has their own interests. Things that they prefer to do on their own. But of course, somebody that enjoys spending time with me, wants to spend time with me, and whom I enjoy spending time with, whom I want to spend time with.
Somebody that I can have long conversations with. A woman with an open and flexible mind, willing to accept new perspectives.
Are these unrealistic desires?
Am I describing the modern, independent woman?
I cannot deny that I also wish to feel warm, soft, smooth skin under my fingers. I yearn to feel a pubic bush tickle my fingertips. I want to see a shapely mouth smile warmly at me due to my presence, and what more, my actions. And I want to see clear, intelligent eyes echo that smile.
Are these selfish desires?
The next part will sound silly, I fear, but it is nonetheless true: I desire to pleasure this hypothetical woman that I have described.
It seems that orgasms are such an easy thing for men: just have a wank and it's done. My impression is that it is a lot more complicated and difficult for women to reach an orgasm.
From this there grew in me the conviction that the woman's pleasure comes first. I realize that the best sex is when both partners are enjoying themselves as much as possible, as this creates a feedback effect: one partner feels how excited the other one is, and become excited in turn. However, the world is not ideal and if I must choose between my pleasure and the woman's, her pleasure will always come first. Pun intended.
And so I desire to be the source of pleasure for this theoretical, hypothetical woman.
Am I wrong in my desires?
Am I reaching for the stars, destined to fall on my face?
All I know is that this is what I feel that I desire. I lack experience, but this is what my gut feeling tells me.