On my sex drive

This post will be a bit different from the others. I think it may be a bit more scattershot as I'll attempt to cover quite a lot of ground.

As I've only had sex once, my sexual release has mostly come from masturbation. Thus, I will be mentioning that activity a fair amount in this post. Consider yourself warned!

On to the business at hand.



When I was a teenager, my sex drive, or libido, came to life with a roar. Like all young men I started to feel this raging need that had to be sated often and regularly. We're talking at least twice a day, and usually quite a lot more than that.

I started to identify as a sexual creature. It wasn't enough for me to look at myself and think "I am a man with a functioning penis". I knew that my sex drive was the best of them all. That it was a blazing inferno that could never be put out.

Then I left for the university and studied there for five years. I was often very busy, and usually only thought to get some release a few times a week. On slow days and weekends I'd find myself drifting back to the habits of old, but it didn't quite feel like it used to.

It became more rare that I felt that burning need that had to be quenched. Often, it felt like a habit, or something done to clear my head. On a very few occasions it almost felt like a chore.

With time my old image of myself came to be remade as it crumbled. I realized that I was not special. My libido was not superior to that of anybody else's.

And I started to worry. If my sex drive was just like Average Joe's, that meant that it might fade in time. It sounds incredibly silly at 24, but time only moves in one direction and takes its toll on us all.

I started to worry that I would peak before ever really getting to use what I have. In fact, according to some articles I read way back, I may already have peaked: according to the research in those articles men have their sexual peak at about 21 where women have theirs in their 30s.

My head started to fill with "what if"s. What if I actually do manage to engage with a woman? What if I will dissapoint, not only because of my lack of skill, but also because at that point age may have blunted the edge of my sex drive?

But then came the funny thing I noticed. The twist to this post, so to speak. I started to notice an odd trend in myself. Every time I shave my package my sex drive goes through the roof. From maybe dealing with it once a day, it goes to several times a day.

And that helps to wash away some of my worries, because then I realize that a sex drive, like so many other things, has ebbs and flows. So many factors work together to affect it. Stress, diet, (apparently) the hairiness of my package, etc. etc.

Lately, I've been feeling very stressed out, and that doesn't help. Yet, during my one sex act I proved to myself that I can perform quite well under both pressure, and in a situation that I don't really want to be in. In other words, there's nothing wrong with my sex drive.

Just like everybody else, I've come to understand that growing up and maturing is a lot about realizing that at the end of the day, maybe you're not all that special. It's a lot about decreasing the size of a youthful ego to more reasonable levels.

So what did I want to get across with this post, then? Well, the main issue is that I worried, and still worry, that my sex drive will fade before I ever get a chance to really put it to use. That worry was amplified by the youthfully arrogant belief that my libido was superior. Realizing that that was (most likely) not the case eased the worry, but it still remains.

I suppose it can all be summed up by saying that I sometimes vaguely feel as if the sands of time are slipping through my fingers. If you excuse me waxing poetical here.

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You're a good guy Zorgs, I wouldn't worry about missing your sexual peak :) You'll be fine! The girls should be lining up for ya!
 
HunggGreek;bt110725 said:
You're a good guy Zorgs, I wouldn't worry about missing your sexual peak :) You'll be fine! The girls should be lining up for ya!

Not unless I give them a reason to, Herakles!
 
Zorg, great body and sexy cock! This post is interesting. My sex drive took a nose dive when I entered by early 40's. At 47 now, I don't have enough interest in sex to pursue having sex with someone. Rather sad...I certainly didn't see this coming. But it does not happen to all men, as there are plenty guys that are 20 years older than me who are still going strong and having sex. I asked my Dr. about this, and he thinks I might be depressed, although I don't feel depressed. I workout everyday at the gym and I am in perfect health. I thought that maybe I had low testosterone, but blood tests say my testosterone is in the normal range for my age. Who knows...I just wanted to share my experience with you. Thanks for posting this article and your hot pics!
 

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