Orange Crush (A love unrequited)

I met this guy. He was sooo handsome and we had great conversations on more than one occasion. It made me feel so good to find someone that didn't fit into the mold of "stereotypical gay" that was in my league and wasn't a complete nerd.

...Then we had sex.

Let me say, before I continue, that I fancy myself slightly jaded and am therefore able to see through fog-thick bullshit when I come to it, but I was totally fooled this time.

As I was saying, we had sex and it was good, for both of us. We did everything (safe, of course) and even laid together for a while afterwards, which I don't think I've ever done in my entire sexual history. A couple of days later I saw him again out in public and he was, let's just say, less than excited to see me. He hadn't called me after our initial hookup and that concerned me, but I didn't press the issue because he seemed a little closeted on my observation. I thought that he might be living with people who didn't know he was gay...so I didn't want to blow him up and scare him off.

Back to when I saw him again. He was polite, but then rushed off to do something, which I thought was really weird. I didn't know what had changed his perception of me in the days preceding all of our interaction, but it must have been something major. Come to find out it was.

No, it wasn't anything like I had boogers or my breath stank or I wasn't clean in the brown zone...but he was just trying to fuck me in the first place and nothing more. I have been in situations where the hookup was strictly that, but I guess I read our conversations all wrong. I thought that because we connected so well that he was truly interested in me...but I guess not.

it really made me feel bad and upset because had I realized that it was just a screw, I would have definitely treated him as such. I'm not even sure that someone didn't lie to him about me and make me out to be something I'm not.

Investigation is still underway. LOL!

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That really sucks. Since it may not develop into anything else and since I believe that nothing is a mistake unless you haven't learn from the experience, may it be that the turn of events signifies to you that you are ready for a relationship built on more than just sex. YngJock20 is all grown up and knows what he really wants. Cheers and go get it!
 
That's too bad, jock.

It's the same with hetero relationships. The woman puts out thinking there's something more there, and sadly there never was as far as he was concerned.

Better luck next time.
 

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