Pleez dun't stop tha muzick!!!

When I'm at my best creatively, I feel like I'm making (excuse the pun) "beautiful music."

I am greatful for having family and friends who have never thought ill of my being an artist and encouraged me to succeed, no matter what.

However, at my current job, I'm feeling at my wit's end. I don't feel any music, or passion at all about what I'm doing. I haven't created for my own pleasure in a minute because I feel somewhat unhappy about my level of skill due to the way my boss treats me and my work.

I've talked about it before, here, how my boss' flighty nature makes it difficult to even begin to succeed; but now I'm at the point where I don't even have the strength to be brought down again.

I work, or used to work, tirelessly to make awesome products that have received major complements from the majority of those who see them; but all it takes is one person whose opinion isn't even here-nor-there and my boss is disgusted with my work.

I've been working on a major project for almost a year now; however, the only reason I've been working on it for a year is because my boss will constantly change his mind...even worse, go back and forth between new concepts and concepts that he's already turned his nose up at.

I wish that the preverbial "straw" had fallen a couple of months ago so that I could have started looking for new employment before this time of year; since, in the design world, the jobs start to dry up come January.

I am torn, though. I feel like I'm in an abusive relationship where my boyfriend keeps showing signs of change, but he's predominantly the same person. I want to leave, but if my boss decides to stick to his guns and launch this thing, we will be kings and queens of the world...so to speak. I doubt that that will happen, though. The writing has been on the wall longer than I care to admit and I know I have to leave, for my sake.

I don't know what will happen when I leave, but I do know that I wanna get back to blasting the music from my heart. I can't do that here, so I'll just have to go somewhere else.

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I know how you feel. That is why I left my job and started anew. I'm not sure what area you are in design wise, but have you thought about going solo? Sometimes being a consultant will make you more than a 9 to 5.

I've said it before, You have too bright and creative a mind to waste. Life is too short. If your boss is too much of a pinhead to realize what he has, go to someone who does.

I'm praying you get the music back soon.
 
Go forward and never look back. If you feel like you are being stiffled, you probably are. As Osiris said, life is way too short to say "I should have"...you know what your heart is saying!! Move forward. Good luck to you!
 

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